Though it's hard to say goodbye, it's for the best. I've decided to end my time here at blogspot. Thank you for visiting. Take care!

--ME

princess @ 1:01 PM

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I've been online everyday since my last entry. But why am I not blogging? No, I'm not lazy. Just didnt feel like it. Heheh.

So I was surfing around when an article on relationship caught my eye. The title read, "Recovering from a failed relationship - Starting over". Before most of you groan and say, "She's gonna start again", bear with me for a couple of paragraphs.

I like what I read. It made me look at it at a different angle. Instead of feeling sorry and regret, I felt that somehow I was saved.

Then there was another article titled, "My ex is getting engaged". Woah! That article was just what I needed. I understand now that the feelings I have are not love anymore, they're merely jealousy. Yes, yes. I admit. I'm jealous.. That he found someone he is willing to spend his rest of his life with. While I'm here, forever in between school and work.. Stuck with guys whom I can never consider more than friends.

No. I'm not jealous of the girl. I wouldnt want to trade places with her even if I were offered a million dollars. I know for sure now that he isnt the one for me. Hurrah!

So, the article said to congratulate the person and move on. I've done the congratulating part.. Now for the moving on.

And by moving on, I would like to move to better place. Some place where I wish I can just be myself. Start a new beginning. Some place I hope he & the others will never find me and my words. Cause eventhough those people mean nothing to me, my words do. And I dont like my words to be used against me.

I'm hoping for a miracle to happen. =)

princess @ 3:31 PM

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Dragged myself to school eventhough I had a very bad case of diarrhoea. Finished up with my last project for this semester(and hopefully for the rest of my tertiary life) and went to do the presentation.

Thank God class ended early! Went to Toa Payoh to meet my parents. Bumped into Yan. Wonderful surprise. =) Dinner at Padang Restaurant. Mummy didnt eat anything since it was her turn with diarrhoea.


Bakso Hotplate Special
Said goodbye to daddy as he had to go to work after which mummy and I walked around. Got the stuffs we wanted before finally heading home.



Anyways, took a picture of this. Care to guess where it's at? Heheh.



I'm off to sleep. I look terribly bad. And I dont feel good either. Diarrhoea's back. Argh~~~~~

princess @ 11:59 PM

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Went to the beach with the parents and Gemuk. They laze around while I went swimming.





Didnt feel safe leaving daddy with Gemuk, since there were so many doggies around, thus I put him into a basket before mummy and I set off.




Cycled all the way to Bedok Jetty before meeting dad at Komala's for dinner. Gemuk too got to eat dinner. Luckily I remembered to bring a carrot for him. Hehehe!




Lovely day. Am so exhausted.
Good night~

princess @ 9:23 PM

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Both of us were feeling bored in the evening. So in between rolling all over bro's bed and disturbing each other, Gemuk and I posed for pictures. Heheh.






But after awhile we got bored again and just lied down beside each other, waiting for something exciting to happen. Which didnt.. Until daddy told me that we'll be picking mummy up and going out for dinner! Yipppppppppeee! I'm saved from having to eat sardines.

Dinner was at the newly renovated Bedok Food Centre/Corner which reminds me so much of Adam Road FC. There were so many people and I spotted a table where the people have already finished the food on their plates. I wasnt a vulture(Herda should know what I mean). I stood quite a distance away so as not to make the people at the table feel awkward. Waited for 15mins and they still didnt bulge. For goodness sake.. I felt like telling them off. If they're not going to go for a second round, get their a55 off. Be considerate people!!! But I didnt. I dont like to waste my breath on such people.

And I got a table a couple of metres away. At least that pakcik was considerate. He lets us share the table. And to think that the inconsiderate buffoon had the cheek to look at me! Luckily I'm no witch or I would have cursed him.



MMS free from 5pm-8pm everyday till end of March. Thank you M1! *big kiss*

princess @ 11:26 PM

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There's a wake at the void deck of my block and yet the inconsiderate makcik is still doing it. She, who simply loves to karaoke loudly with her awful out of pitch voice, apparently has no respect for the deceased. How is the deceased suppose to RIP? How are the relatives suppose to grieve with her disturbing the peace and quietness of the neighbourhood?

I wont be surprise if the deceased should suddenly wake up from the dead. Or even, haunt her. She deserves it!

There should be a law against people blasting off their speakers. It's noise pollution.

Oh, shuttap already~

Btw.. I'm back to my Earl Grey and English Breakfast teas. Forest Fruit is a tad too sweet(sugar, spice and everything nice) for me. It doesnt go with my mean self. =p

princess @ 6:25 PM

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Anyone read the papers? About the Tampines tragedy or something? I only caught the headlines by straining my neck to look at the newpaper belonging to the guy seating in front of me in the lecture theatre. Wow. Longest sentence ever! Haha.

As you all already know, I'm too tired and lazy to read it myself. So please.. Update me! Thank you. =)

On another note, 2 of my managers left the workplace. *sighs* Will miss them terribly. All the laughter, bi*ching and making funny voices. With a heavy feeling in the heart.. I said good bye and wished them the best of luck.

Everybody's moving on.. I should too.

Bonsoir!

princess @ 12:08 AM

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Move over Earl Grey, English Breakfast, Darjeeling, Oolong, Peppermint, Camomile and whatnots. Make way for Forest Fruit! Heheh



Heavenly. *sighs*

princess @ 2:56 PM

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Been awhile since I met up with this person and when I did, I really wish I had stayed at home instead. I know, mean of me to say that.

But it was actually quite a waste of my time. Cause I might as well be walking around the shopping mall by myself instead of with TP(this person). Luckily I enjoyed the movie. Though I would have much preferred to sit rows and rows away from TP. And, I dont feel guilty for telling TP that I have to go home early.. Only to meet up with bro a couple of minutes later and have a more enjoyable eventhough silent dinner at Swensen's.

*shakes head in disbelief*

I'm terribly mean. Well, it's just too bad. Though I can get along well with absolutely anyone.. There are a few whom I just cant stand. Useless to even try to get along.

Oh, dont get me wrong. I didnt show TP my displeasure or meaness. Instead I did make small talk and smiled occasionally. Which made TP msged me after we went our own ways, asking me if I'd like to celebrate TP's birthday in a couple of weeks.. Which I politely declined.

Lalalalalalalaa~

Shootz! Am so late for work!
Toodles~

princess @ 4:03 PM

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Wanted so bad to go cycling at East Coast but it rained the whole day. Mummy asked me if I wanted to tag along to her friend's place and daddy asked if I wanted to accompany him to my step cousin's(if there is such a thing) wedding. Of course I dont to both! That's not my idea of spending my day off.

And so I distributed my time evenly.. Watch tv, used Aaron, walk aimlessly around the house ie, from living room to kitchen to living room again to bedroom to toilet and then finally I fell asleep on my bed.

Doesnt that sound fun? Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

I'm not feeling nice at the moment. I just had to tell him what was bugging me. He speaks to me with his trying-to-sound-nice-or-cute-voice which makes me feel so uncomfortable. And it makes me mad sometimes cause it's as though he's speaking to a 2 year old instead of a 19 year old. What? Fine! 21 year old. *grumbles*

I'm not being paranoid. It's true. I dont have the same problem with the others. For example, I get along just fine with MM. I can talk for hours with him. Okay maybe not all the time. Cause sometimes we'll just keep quiet and listen to each other's breathing. =p

Then I'm starting to think I'm an EUW. Heheh. If there's an EUM, there sure can be an EUW too, no? I'm not ready to commit. How to when I've yet to find the right one? Even if I did, he's an EUM. So what good will it do? And I kind of like it that I can still flirt and remain single. Haha. Furthermore I'm not in a hurry. Sure.. Looking at the enormous number of my friends or ex, for that matter, getting engage or married is making me want to join them. And I know I will. Someday.. Insya-Allah. Not now.

Back to him. I apologised for sounding nasty and mean. And as always, he used the I'm-depressed-cause-I-just-broke-up-with-my-100th-girlfriend tactic(I'm exaggerating. But who knows exactly how many girlfriends he had. Could even be thousands and millions!). When is he ever going to realise that I dont buy it? When is he ever going to grow up? Why must I always feel bad and give him a chance and then regret it? Why? Why? Why? Want to know what else I did? I called him stupid for saying that he's going to ask Allah to end his life soon. I'm mean but I just cant help it. Honest to God, I give up. As of today.. His number and every trace of his existance wil be erased from MyGorgeousBaby and memory. He'll join the long list of others who has pissed me off.

Should never test my patience. Or assuming that I'm nice. I'm only nice cause I dont have a choice. Being mean takes up most of my energy and it keeps me awake till late at night. And so you might ask.. Why be mean then? Simple answer.. Well, it's because of you. *smiles sweetly*

Oh look! Pay's in. Haiz.. Not a lot. I really need to get a new job soon! Oooo.. Should still be grateful. Ok, Syukur Alhamdulillah.

FYI: EUM stands for Emotionally Unavailable Man
Go figure what EUW stands for!

princess @ 11:57 PM

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Busy day at work. Accidentally cut my finger. Deep cut. Boo hoo hoo! Thank God for hansaplast! *muahs* Went home to get a nap of 10mins before getting ready to meet the girls at Bugis. Luckily there's a straight bus from my place to there and B accompanied me. Journey seems to be much shorter with her around. Talked and laughed like crazy people.

V was quite pissed with us for arriving late. My fault. Took a longer time than usual to get ready. Haha! Went shopping for awhile before having dinner @ Raffles Hospital's Banquet. Then off to Suntec for a bit of Coffee Bean theraphy.

V and I have a lot in common. We're both in love with a EUM. Not the same one, thankfully. =)

Yes, I'm in love with him. Finally I admit it. Took a long time, didnt it? Haha. Well.. The one I used to love with all my heart now belongs to some else and my parents taught me never to take other people's belongings. *smiles*

And so we got into a serious conversation. B and I tried to cheer V up. No one bothered about me since I was doing a good job of cheering myself up. LoL! That's the trouble with me.. When I'm tired and lacking sleep, I turn into a clown. I dont even need a big red nose to amuse people. Maybe I should look in the classifieds for a job as a clown. *yawns*

Gosh! Why must he be so good looking? Why must he be so nice? Why is he a EUM?!!! Why? Why? Why?

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz~

princess @ 12:23 AM

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Today's network infrastructure lecture was so boring that I switched on my mp3 player and drifted off to dreamland, with my eyes wide opened. Wasnt the only one. Half of the class did the same. Huahauhauahuahauaha..

Here's a picture of the stuffs on my table. Book, pencil, eraser, cute kitty pencil case, mp3 player, current favourite bag and a can of coke. I have this obsession for having the same colour stationaries. Everything's blue. Ruler, pens, pencils, eraser, highligter.. Everything! Hehehe.



Then had to walk a long way to the MRT station since there's a fire drill going on at my school's building. Am so glad that I didnt have to participate. But did get the chance to look at the *ahem* abang abang bomba. *giggles mischievously*




And best part of the day would be the beautiful sunset I saw from my bedroom window. What more could a princess ask for?




p/s: Saw the younger cousin's face in a commercial for a show on Suria. The other day I was on Channel News Asia. Now it's his turn. Weeeeeeeeeee~ TV people lurves us! Or so we would like to believe. Heheh!

princess @ 6:52 PM

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I dont want to turn into an emotional freak. A depress, miserable and lonely one, that is. I guess I need to find someone who is able to put a smile back on my face. Sure, I do smile and laugh for most part of the day but it doesnt feel genuine.

I'm crazy. Making mountains out of an anthill. PMS must be the reason for this. Yup, much easier to blame it on others or something else than oneself.

Oooooooooo... Somehow the rain's falling as heavily as the tears from my eyes. Amazing.

Damn! I'm happy. Dont you dare burst my happy bubble!!!

princess @ 4:48 PM

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Niari hari macam macam gua lah. Hari malas + hari bingit + hari gua rasa macam nak pi rembat orang.

Gua tak faham lah asal lu masih datang dalam mimpi mimpi gua. Lu takde keje pe? Orang macam lu buat gua geram tau! Pasal gua tak nak ingatkan lu lagik. Lebih baik lu pi belah. Main jauh jauh.

Nie lagik satu. Tak payah nak mesej mesej gua lah. Gua tak heran sama lu! Gua tak suka kacau laki/bapak/datuk/moyang orang. Bluwek!

Lu jangan nak step buat suara kiut lu lah! Relek sudah lah beb. Gua tengok muka lu pun menyampah. Eksyen baik. Padahal, belakang orang.. Talam dua muka! Menyampah~

Dan sesiapa yang sesungguhnya berani nak cabar gua nanti, lu orang baik fikir baik baik. Gua takkan fikir dua kali untuk kasi lu satu penumbuk.

princess @ 4:00 PM

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My current favourite hangouts in school are the cafe and library. Speaking of library, finally they renovated the basement!




There's rows and rows of magazines (Cleo, Woman, Teens.. You name it, they've got it!), books by some of my favoourite authors, internet access(like those found at the airport! No more boring computer labs for me~ =p), a couple of flat screen tvs for us to watch dvds and lots of absolutely comfortable sofas to just chill and read. But there are those who much prefer sitting or lying on the carpet floor. =)

Cant afford to travel yet so I'd settle for these books in the meantime.


I nearly went crazy.. So many books and mags to read! So little time. Khekehkehekehe~


I badly need the Girl's Guide to Work & Life. How to create the life you want --YES PLEASE!!! *grins*



Well, I did borrow a few. But I doubt I'll be doing a lot of reading. Feeling exhausted. Even now. Partly due to the fact that I've been working everyday since Saturday. Eyes can barely open. tsk! So, excuse me while I get some sleep. Heheh. Au revoir!

princess @ 2:52 PM

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