pink happy

Went to work yesterday eventhough I was feeling sick. What with the blocked nose and sore throat. But it was only for 4 hours. An ex schoolmate of mine came in and it was definitely shocking to see him again. Hahahaha! Cant believe that we're working in the same building. Reached home to see my grandma, aunt and her family there. Grandma spent the night at our place whilst my aunt and her family headed back.

My flu got worse. Panadol's cold relief doesnt seem to work. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmMM. I'm so bored. The weather's so hot. tsk tsk! Think will go Johor later.

Oh.. By the way, you know what? I give up. I'm tired of doing the stupid stuffs that I've been doing. She can have him for all I care. I have my other babies to keep me company and happy.

Have you tried Almond Caramel Fudge ice cream from Walls yet?

princess @ 3:28 PM

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Hah! Nice bike, dont you think so? Hehehehee~

princess @ 1:31 AM

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How do you like the new layout? A nice change from all the other pink layouts, eh? Heheh!

Work was alright today. The person I mentioned about in yesterday's post was working as well. Decided to have little conversion with her as I possibly can. Then the manager talked to one of the aunties. Dont exactly know what she told the aunty but minutes later, the aunty had a "talk" with that person. Well, a shouting match to be exact. I'm beginning to wonder if I had somehow triggered all this. hmmmmmmmmmmmmMM. But I cant be bothered. I've decided not to think anymore about it or her.

I'm falling sick. My throat's a bit sore and out of a sudden I have running nose. *sighs*

Think will go to sleep early. Bonsoir!

princess @ 1:16 AM

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Lots of sh*tty stuffs happenned today.

Went for practical in the morning. Instructor didnt want to pass me eventhough he said that I was okay. Only that I need to practice more. WTH! Each practical is a blardy $30++. And today was my third time. Need more practice?! My *** ah~ I'm so freaking fed up!!!! And the comment he wrote in my book was, fatigue. I'm NOT tired!!! I'm just freaking sick and bored of going for the same practical!!! Who wouldnt be!!! Argh!!!

Beginning to hate working with this one person. She just pisses me off. And I'm not the only one feeling this way. The other colleagues too feel the same way. Sometimes we do pity her. For having go through a very difficult phase but it's no excuse for her ****ed up attitude. Hmph!

Mum and Dad came over in the evening. Mum said that Daddy initially wanted to dine at my workplace but after looking around, he decided against it. Hahahaha! At long last, my family members got sick of eating all the breads, puffs, muffins, tarts and eclairs. LoL! To think that there's still LOTS of those stuff in the fridge. I wonder who'll eat them. Not me, that's for sure. I've surrendered a long time ago. Ever since I had to eat it everyday at work. Hehehee~ Anyway, passed mum my helmet since I was lazy to bring it home myself. =)

I'm so looking forward to the weekend. Will be working but at least I've got a date! With who, you ask? It's a secret. Huahauhauaa~ Toodles!

p/s: Many apologies for the many exclamation marks. Hehehee~

princess @ 12:04 AM

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Woke up to an empty house. What's new. *yawns* Mum and bro's off to work. Daddy's gone to Johor to settle the house stuffs. I did the laundry and dishes before having brunch in front of the telly.

Manager called minutes ago. Asked if I could drop by WestMall to get some stuffs before I go to work. Haiyah~! If I had known better, I wouldnt have picked up the phone. Dah lah malas nak gi keje, kena gi ambik barang lagik malas sey! Ambik MC pun baik ah.. Tapi, nak bilang doktor apa eh? Sakit jiwa? Sakit otak? LoL!

Oppppppppppps! I'm running late. See ya!

princess @ 2:14 PM

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I'm in the mood to blog about love tonight.

I've loved this guy for almost 4 years. He's everything I want except for a particular trait of his which I find really disturbing. If only things didnt have to happen the way it did. If only he knows that my love for him is real and vice versa. If only this and that. But no matter. Eventhough we're fated not to be together, I'm glad that we're still friends and everything. And truth to be told.. I like the ways things are between us now. You know, no strings attached equals to no arguments! =)

I love this guy ever since forever. Hahahaha! Just joking. This guy I love in a special kind of way. You see, we're close. He's like a brother to me and I'm like a sister to him. We love to joke and I guess because of that, sometimes we sent each other mixed signals. Oh! To other people too. At times I begin to wonder if we're meant to be together. For we share the same interests & we understand each other eventhough we dont usually think the same thoughts. But I push the thought away. For I treasure our friendship and am afraid to try. I have a feeling he feels the same way too.

I've never loved this guy before but I like him. He makes me laugh. I run to him whenever I desperately need to talk. He listens well and gives good advices. He's always declaring his love for me but I'm not so sure whether it's true. Reason being, he was in a relationship. But now he isnt. Should I jump up for joy? Should I be happy? Should I make him my new prince? Hahahahaaaa~ Nah. I shouldnt.

This guy I know since I was 14 yrs old. Never treated him more than a friend. He only comes to me when he needs help or when he feels lonely. I usually try to help him out but I think he got the wrong message. He mistook my kindness and thought that I like him more than a friend. *sighs* It took me ages to convince him that I dont.

This guy I've treated really bad. He had this crush on me. Always being there. But I pushed him aside since I was happy being with another guy, whom I now realise.. didnt treat me well. He comes to my place every year during Hari Raya, alone. Mum says that he must really like me to do that. *shrugs* You wanna know what happenned to him? Well, he finally found someone who loves him as much as he loves her. I'm truly happy for him. No regrets.

I dont know why I'm blogging about them. Perhaps one day, in the future.. I'll read this entry and laugh to myself. For I'd like to believe that by then.. I would have already found my one true prince charming and am already happily married to him.
Let's wish for that to happen, shall we? =)

princess @ 1:33 AM

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I think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus there's so many other things I gotta deal with

I'm twisted coz one side of me
Is telling me that I need to move on
On the other side I
Wanna break down and cry

princess @ 1:08 AM

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Met up with the prince for a little while. Talked and hang out. When he had to leave, I didnt want him to. But thinking back about it, I guess I have no right whatsoever to make him stay anyway.

Rest of the day was spent in front of the telly.

Oh well, off to read up my notes. Again. *sighs*
Toodles!

princess @ 10:32 PM

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Bad news. I failed. =( Gotta take 2 supp papers. *sighs* Saw it coming. No matter. Will study for it.

princess @ 9:21 AM

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As I was putting on my contact lenses, I noticed that at the corner of my left eye, it was bloodshot red. Funny thing was that it didnt hurt. hmmmmmmmmmmmmMM! Pushed aside the thought of going to the doctor and went to work.

Was suppose to end at 9pm but extended till 11 since a colleague wasnt feeling well. My feet were killing me by the time I end.

The prince msged and told me that he's at home. Reason being, his grandfather passed away. Innalillahi-wainallilahi-rajiun. The heart feels a sense of loss eventhough I am not close to his grandfather. I guess it's because I know the feeling of losing a grandfather too well. Anyway, condolonces to him and his family.

princess @ 11:47 PM

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Goodness me! I'm turning into a sleeping beauty. Just woke up. Heheh! =p

princess @ 11:02 AM

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Mum came into my room in the early morning, around 7ish, dressed in her jubbah. Asked her where she's going only to be forced out of bed and to the kitchen window to see the couch covers hanging on the bamboo poles of the neighbour's below. Haiyah! It seemed that mum tried to bring in the covers as it was raining and daddy has this thing about leaving the laundry out in the rain. Because the covers are heavy, the pole broke into two. tsk! I didnt want to go over since I had to change t-shirts. The one I was wearing was ummmmmm.. not suitable. LoL! But since daddy didnt want to go, I went to change and knocked on the neighbour's door. Luckily, someone was up and answered the door. Went into the house since she invited me in to get it and minutes later, I was back in my bed.. dreaming away. =p

Practical didnt really go that well. *sighs* I want my blardy license!!!

Got home and watched the telly till evening. ZuL came over for a little while to borrow my deegee cam. Watched more telly before falling asleep on the couch. After which it became uncomfortable and I rolled over onto the floor. Woke up around 11pm.

I have this weird style of sleeping. I like to put either of my hands or both of them under my head. As a result, they become numb and I get my sleep disturbed. Dreams of falling into a black endless pit are long gone. Instead now, I talk in my sleep. What's scary is that sometimes I can even hear myself talking or making weird noises. Ooooooo.. I think I better not describe my sleeping habits in case I scare off potential husbands. LoL!

Off to sleep again since I have nothing else better to do. Bonsoir~

princess @ 1:09 AM

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Testing a new software. Let's see if it works. By the way, this is a picture of Sultan Mosque. Took it a couple of months ago on a date with the prince. Hehehehee~

princess @ 1:52 AM

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My elder cousin smsed asking if I'm interested in a quick gateaway to KL next month. I would so love to go with her and her younger sister. Just the three of us. But I'd have to check my schedule and budget first. Hopefully they didnt think of staying over at any of the grandaunts' or relatives' place. That would be so BORING! My aunts and uncles are a couple of years older, some are even younger. And though my uncles are *ahem* good looking and have *ahem* *ahem* more good looking friends, have their own transportation and stuff.. I much prefer just the three of us. On another hand, it wouldnt hurt to hang out with them. LoL!

Just finished chatting with the kids on MSN. At first it was Syed and me. Then him, Azril and me. Ady joined us awhile later and Azril left to do his FYP. Jan joined a couple of minutes later followed by Chin Chung. Then lastly, Yan came in. It was really nice being able to "talk" to everyone again. Terribly miss them. The laughter and fun. *sighs*

Exam results in 2 days! My gosh!!! Time passes so fast. I'm wishing and hoping that I pass. Desperately wishing.

I'm off to sleep now. Morning practical again.. *yawns*
Toodles!

princess @ 1:24 AM

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Work yesterday was really tiring. Lots of people came in. But luckily I didnt mess up. I was really patient and smiled. A lot. It's lucky that my mouth didnt hurt from all that smiling. LoL!

The prince msged, asking if I wanna meet him. Would love to except that it's 2 in the morning! tsk tsk~ Furthermore, I needed my rest. Been working everyday since Tuesday. I'm so happy that I got today and tomorrow off. Hehehehee~

Morning and noon was spent grocery shopping with mum. Later on will have to do the housework. Argh~ So not looking forward to that. And perhaps in the evening, will be meeting up with Vina. Depending on my mood. =)

Have a good Sunday peeps!

princess @ 3:29 PM

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Feeling so sleepy but I just cant seem to shut my eyes. What's worst is that I've got work again. *grumbles*

What's stopping 2 people who seem to like each other a lot from being together? Could it be the lack of confidence the guy possesses or the I-dont-care-about-anything attitude of the girl? I truly pity them. tsk tsk! They would make a purrfect pair.

*yawns*

princess @ 2:31 AM

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This world is full of crappy people. I'm getting sick and tired of their nonsense. But I'm not going to let them get to me. No way are they going to burst my happy bubble. No way are they going to get to me. I've come so far to be the happy person that I am now. Hah! I've no time for people like them. Instead, I'll surround myself with those who love and care for me.

Off to work again. *sighs*

princess @ 11:07 AM

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Got home from work and logged onto friendster. Was quite surprise to see 2 new messages from a person who isnt in my friends' list. By the time I finished reading the messages my heart was beating really fast and my blood's boiling.

It would seem that the particular person didnt get her facts right. I would suggest that she listens to both sides of the story before calling me names and putting all the blame on me. For goodness sake. She don the hijjab yet she does this kind of stupid childish stuff. I know I'm not perfect but at least I dont go around scolding people bad words or calling them names. And yeah, I'm not pretty but at least I have good manners. Unlike her.

I'm pissed at another person too for not minding her own business. So what if I put his picture there? It's my freaking choice. Not happy? Tell me straight in my face. Not behind my back. Especially not to your friends. Dont believe what I told you about him.. Fine! Your freaking problem not mine. Want me to confront him? You sure? Ask yourself first if you can handle the truth. Hahaha! I can be evil if I want to. But just be glad that at the moment I rather not.

You want to learn it through the hard way.. By all means, do! I'm not stopping you. I even wished you luck. Sincerely from my heart. Not sarcastically.

By the way, kalau nak gaduh.. Jumpa ah. Face to face. Jangan nak jadik pengecut hantar message thru friendster.

princess @ 11:56 PM

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Nearly didnt go for my prac in the morning. Felt so sleepy and tired since I got home late from work the previous night. Only went to sleep at around 1.30am. But I forced myself to wake up, showered and left the house. Bought along my brand new helmet. Hehehee!

There was a TP test going on when I reached. Thus we had to use the old bike. Suckies! Going at 70km/h with buses, lorries and cars speeding by with the old bike isnt fun. Luckily no accident happenned. Heheheheee~

Got home, slept for a little while before going to work. Getting sick of eating the food at the workplace. But if anyone of you feel like eating something from there, do give the DeliGratin a try. Especially the pasta. But then again, perhaps it tastes nice for me cause I added extra ingredients to it. LoL! Advantages of being a staff..

I'm off to sleep. Cant wait for the weekends.

princess @ 12:20 AM

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Let's do this..

Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now :
1)Money
2)Work
3)License
4)Sleep

Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought :
1)Brooch
2)Bag
3)Bread
4)Helmet

Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink :
1)Vanilla Coke Light
2)Sprite Ice
3)Qoo Apple
4)Ice tea

Last Time You Cried ?
= Last week

What's In Your CD Player ?
= I will survive - CaKe

What Color Socks Are You Wearing ?
= None at the moment

What's Under Your Bed ?
= Dust.. Lots of them!

What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
= You mean yesterday.. 10.20am

Current Hair ?
= Brownish black

Current Clothes ?
= T-shirt & Shorts

Current Desktop Picture ?
= A girl with her cat

Current Worry ?
= Exam results, I guess

Current Hate ?
= hmmmmmmmmmMM.. Nothing and no one

Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex?
= Eyes or Height

Last CD You Bought ?
= My Goodness. It has been ages since I bought one~

Favorite Place To Be ?
= The beach

Least Favorite Place ?
= Public toilets. LoL!

If You Could Play An Instrument ?
= None whatsoever

if yes, have u ever been go on stage and win ?
= What about if no?

Favorite Color(s)?
= Blue, green, pink, black, brown

Do You Believe In An Afterlife ?
= Yes, there's heaven and hell

How Tall Are You ?
= 168cm

Current Favorite Word/Saying ?
= Hahaha.. You really wanna know?

Favorite Season ?
= What season! Singapore has only 1 season. Blargh!

One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could
speak with?
= No one comes to mind

Favorite Day ?
= My birthday

Where Would You Like To Go ?
= Bintan/Paris/Australia

How Many Kids Do You Want ?
= 4 or more. Depends on whether I can cope with labour pain. Hahaha~

Favorite Car ?
= Jaguar X-type or Peugeot

princess @ 1:34 AM

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I'm feeling pretty happy at the moment. Things between my only guy bestfriend and me are better now. The tension's all gone. Thank God!

How it all started I didnt know. One minute we're civil to each other and the next we started being mean. It sure wasnt nice. Oh in case you're wondering why I didnt mention it in my previous posts well it's because I just didnt feel like blogging about something so trivial. =)

Anyway, I got my PDL. Cant believe that it cost $25!!! Tsk tsk! I'm broke. Booked for a prac on Wednesday morning. I'm hoping that I'm able to wake up early. Sat in the canteen while waiting for the bus to come. Then took the train all the way to Tampines. Met up with the cousin before going off to meet Vina. Did a little bit of shopping theraphy before hanging out at Starbucks. It was fun just hanging out with her.

Left the place around 9 and reached home an hour later. Thanks to bus number 168. Hehehehe..

I'm off to sleep. *yawns*

princess @ 12:30 AM

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I want to blog but I have no idea what to type. Nothing interesting happenned. Most of the weekend was spent working. Worked overtime on Saturday and begged to be let off from working overtime on Sunday so that I could go over the aunt's place to get my helmet. Yeah, I finally bought my own helmet. Huhuhuhu! Would love to show how it looks like but unfortunately mum borrowed my deegee cam and left it at her workplace. *sighs*

Had dinner with the parents at Simpang Bedok. The food is truly delicious. Daddy and I had black pepper chicken rice while mum had noodles. Bought take-aways for bro before heading home.

Going over to BBDC later to apply for my PDL and hopefully book for my prac. Then off I go to meet the cousin cause I left my work uniform over at her place yesterday. Haha! Silly me.

Have a wonderful Monday.
Toodles!

princess @ 12:36 PM

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I'm still alive. =)

princess @ 12:12 AM

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Lots of things happenned yesterday.

My practical went really well. Instructor kept praising me. Said that I rode the best among the others. Even the other guys in the same practical as me praised me. Huhuhuhuhu! Sometimes all it takes is a little bit of confidence and determination. =) Well, if only I didnt have to fill in for my colleague today.. I'd be at BBDC applying for my PDL. Yessa!!!! Dah boleh main luar pulak. *grins*

Got home feeling happy and tired at the same time. Lack of sleep again. Made myself comfortable in front of the telly and waited for Maghrib.

Watched the latest season of Gilmore Girls that I had download with mum. Fell asleep before being awakened by the phone ringing. It was Vina. She had interesting news to tell me. She was more excited than I was. Told her to take a deep breath and count to 3.

Hanged up with her and was dozing off peacefully when my handphone rang. Didnt recognise the number but I picked it up anyway. Told the person everything she wanted to know. I'm guessing he'll be mad with me but what the hell. It's not my fault. She's the one who wanted to know. She's the one who went through all the trouble of finding and calling me. NOT ME. So if he still blame me then he needs a brain surgery or a really hard knock on the head to jolt him back to a little thing called reality. Oh, if he says that I'm seeking revenge.. FAT HOPE!!! If I wanted revenge, this isnt what I'll do. I'm capable of doing something worse but I wont, ever. Cause I know that if I do it.. It'll never end. And I do want it to end!

You know, I felt sorry for her. That she's experiencing what I went through lots of time. It happenned lots of time to me and somehow the hurt isnt that bad but it's a first for her. My wound has long healed but her's is still fresh. But if I didnt tell her, I'd be lying. I am no liar.

As much as I dont want to be involved, I am.. *sighs* I wish things were different. I wish he'll grow up and change for the better.

princess @ 11:45 AM

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Have you heard the song Hard to Say I'm Sorry by Chicago before? It's awesome I tell you. Heard it while at work just now. Nearly broke down and cry but luckily Cik was making small talk with me. But it didnt stop me from searching for the lyrics online and downloading the song when I got home.

Is there no potion or medicine for this sickness I seem to be having. I wont deny that I miss him terribly. I wont deny that I dont think about him. I wish I could though. Then it'll be easier. For both of us to let go and move on. Perhaps we should give it time. Someday perhaps both of us will get over each other. Sad..

Enough said. I dont want to start crying again. Maybe I should start dating again. Anyone out there wanna date me? Or has a friend, son, grandson, nephew, brother in law, uncle or grandfather who might? Ah.. On another note, leave out the grandfathers and uncles. *grins* By the way, I dont bite.

princess @ 2:22 AM

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I've been sleeping late these couple of weeks. And it's doing me no good. I'm lacking sleep. Thus, the panda eyes and shitty attitude.

The parents love to come barging into my bedroom early in the morning. I'm no early riser and never will be! Perhaps I should think about placing the phone back in the living room instead of my bedroom. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmMM.. Then I wouldnt get my beauty sleep interrupted by the shrill endless ringing of the phone and the parent's voices. But I doubt that will stop them from coming into my bedroom. Haiz.

My oh my.. The sun's shining so brightly. The heat is killing me. Gotta work today. Boring. Is there no other way of getting money other than working? And no, the idea of marrying a rich old man does not appeal to me. *gags*

I guess I better get going. Drop by and say hi if you're anywhere close to my workplace. =)

princess @ 3:00 PM

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Argh! I'm so angry with myself. I dont know to blame myself for being too overly confident or less confident or just plain dumb.

Cant believe that I failed to stop before the red line for the emergency break course. Argh!!!!!!!!! Everything else was perfect. My goodness. I even got 10 points. The lowest in the class. If not for the stupid immediate failure. *sighs* Nevermind. Will just have to try again. =)

I'm bored.

princess @ 9:19 PM

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Work was pretty okay. But time passed awfully slow. Must be because there werent many customers. Anyway, got $22 extra!!!! We managed to get our incentive. Cool! Now I have more money to spend on myself. *grins*

Money just makes me happy. I'm hoping that it'll be my new bestfriend. Or even, my new boyfriend. Hehehehe~

Gonna have to work this Friday as well. Helped a colleague out since she wanted to go search for a house near the workplace. Didnt want to initially but the little goodness in me made me do it. Heheh! But come to think about it, I should work anyway. Not as though I have anything better to do. No date. No school. No nothing.

Oh how I wish I have my licence and my own bike. Then I can go out for a couple of hours. To the beach, perhaps.. Watch the moon and stars up above. Listen to the waves and feel the wind blowing against my face. How lovely. Or I can always meet up with my friends someplace and hang out. That'll be so much fun. In the meantime, I can continue wishing. Hahahaha.

Do you honestly think that there is someone out there for me? I'm hoping there is.. =)

princess @ 1:14 AM

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My goodness! Blogger has a whole new layout and I must say that I'm impressed!!!! Total coolness. =)

So what did I do yesterday? Well, woke up close to noon and went for brunch with the family. After which daddy drove me to BBDC for my prac. Had a go on the riding stimulator. The instructor told me to go at 100km/h. Had difficulty trying to stay on the "road". Crashed into a lorry and a couple of trees. It was so much fun. Hahahaha~

After that, we had to pair up. Had to practice pillion riding. As a pillion and with a pillion. It was scary at first but after awhile, I got the hang of it. And.. I passed. Yay!

I'm starting work today. Gosh! It has been only 2 weeks but it felt more like 2 months. Khekhekehekee.. Oh well, at least things are a whole lot better now. *grins*

Have a wonderful Monday.

p/s: Notice that prince's been taken out of the list on the left? Well, just wanna let it be known.. It isnt because I no longer love him. I still do. It's just better if I didnt put it there. To avoid any kind of confusion or misunderstanding. =)

princess @ 12:46 PM

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This song best describe us.. Except for the part about coming back. That didnt happen. But the rest is just purrfect. And what a coincidence! 4 years.. *sighs*

Dont Want To Try
i cant believe u had the nerve to say the things u said
they hurt so bad that they ended our relationship
i cant believe it ..4 years go down the drain
oh how i wish things would happen so differently
i tried to save it so many times but you still couldnt see
u kept insisting and resisting that u would not fall again
and now u trying to tell me that u're sorry
and u're trying to come back home
u're telling me u really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor
but baby i..

dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
u keep insisting when u know our love is out the door
dont wanna try dont wanna try coz all we do is fight and say the things
i hurt u bad to where we both begin to cry
dont wanna try dont wanna try i bout just had enough its been a rough road
baby just let it go
dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
tell me what's the use of holding on when all we do is hurt our love

u and i had many conversations on the telephone
talks about one day we having a place of our own
wake up in the morning and have breakfast ready on the table
but all of that just seems so far away from me
had to wake up face reality
it all just seem to good to be true after all you put me through
and now u trying to tell me that u're sorry
and u're trying to come back home
u telling me that u really need me crying begging both knees are on the floor
but baby i..

dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
u keep insisting when u know our love is out the door
dont wanna try dont wanna try coz all we do is fight and say the things
i hurt u bad to where we both begin to cry
dont wanna try dont wanna try i bout just had enough its been a rough road
baby just let it go
dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
tell me whats the use of holding on when all we do is hurt our love

princess @ 1:24 AM

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I passed my practical 8!!! Woooohoooo~ At long last. *grins*

Met up with my friend under my block after my prac. You know.. The one I mentioned about in the previous post. My friend bought me a tudung. =)

Went out in the evening. This time around to City Hall. Walked around City Hall by myself while waiting for Waty and Hanafi to come. Bumped into an ex classmate, Hardi, and his girlfriend. Talked for awhile before I went my way. Bought a brooch for mum from Robinson's. Then since Waty and Hanafi had arrive, we went to Sakura for dinner.

Dinner was on them. Yay! Hehehee.. More shopping after that. Bought for Waty and myself an Esprit bag. A OP shirt for bro and a body spray for daddy. Oh.. Helped bro get mum a perfume talc and shower gel from Marks & Spencer as a Mother's Day gift. It had been such a long time since I spent so much. And you know what.. It made me feel so happy! All I had to do was sign, sign and sign. Huahuahauaha. So much fun!

Drinks and desserts at Burger King before saying goodbye. Promise to meet up soon. Hopefully Vina and her boyfriend will come next time around. =)

Things are definitely better now. I wish it'll be like this for a long time.
I'm so happy. Syukur Alhamdulillah.. I'm surrounded by people who care and love me. People who brighten up my life.

princess @ 11:41 PM

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A friend asked if I wanted to go Johor today.. Was really tempted to say yes eventhough I went there yesterday. Somehow going to Johor lightens up my mood. =) Anyway, I declined as I have my prac in the afternoon. Gonna accompany a friend as it has been a long time since we went together.

Let's forget about the past and move on..
Let's put love and feelings aside and concentrate on better things..
Let's be happy.
It's all about me, myself and I now.

Have a wonderful weekend.

princess @ 11:21 AM

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Never say goodbye if you still want to try. Never give up when there's hope to go on. Never say you don't love them...if you know you're the one that can't let go.

Shootz! I cant let go~!!!!!!!! *cries*

Jetaime Snowie..

princess @ 1:57 AM

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I got my breath of fresh air. Johor's to be exact.. =)

Had an early dinner at Singgah Selalu. Which wasnt that bad ah.. Surprised to see how cheap the ciggies are over there. tsk tsk!

Then went to pasar malam near grandma's place. Bought food and drinks for her before going over. Hanged out for awhile before saying goodbye and went to Giant. Bought the necessary stuffs and also a new house for Gemuk. Hehehee~

I'm tired. So very tired.. *sighs*

princess @ 11:00 PM

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Had difficulty falling asleep last night. Only dozed off around 5am. Woke up around noon, still remembering yesterday's incident. Would love to go back to sleep and not think about it but sadly, I couldnt.

Did the housework and cooked spagetthi for the first time. Found it to be easy to make. And convenient as well. Had it for brunch with a slice of tiramisu cheese cake.

Am currently proud of myself for being able to conceal my true feelings from others. People see the happy, smiling exterior. And that's all they're gonna see. No way am I going to burden anyone with the crapness I'm feeling.

*yawns*

So sleepy.. I think need a breath of fresh air. If only I can fly to someplace far, far away. That would be nice.

princess @ 2:45 PM

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I like this quote.. Got it from Ayshy's.

Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

I've faced my past without regret. I'm left with handling the present and preparing for the future. Truth to be told, I'm actually afraid.

I cried again today. For reasons I wish not to state. I didnt want to, you know.. I held it back for most of the day. But it came pouring out when I was sitting at KFC with mum over dinner. *sighs* It hurts.. But I know I'm not the only one hurting. The other party is feeling the same way too. A 3rd party's point of view made me realise how self-centered and selfish we are. Oh, that's not the reason why I cried.

Revenge.. Beginning to hate that word. Revenge is sweet. Yeah well, to each his own.

Sometimes I do things that I thought is normal. But it isnt. For it might hurt other people. But is it my fault? It's not as though I wanted to hurt the other people intentionally. Maybe it is.. For it's my fault for not thinking if I'm going to hurt them when I say it.

Enough said.
I need to sleep before I start crying again.

princess @ 1:13 AM

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Pay's in.. Thank God.
New layout. Hit the refresh button please..
Thank YOU & have a nice day.

princess @ 12:11 AM

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Finally, my exams are over. All I've got to do now is to study for my 2 supp papers and complete my fyp. Hahahaa.. But not before I enjoy.

Wanted to go out and celebrate but the other kids still have another paper, which is on Friday, and had to study. My prince's sick. As for the others, they're working. And since it rained heavily, decided to just stay in school and hang out while the kids "studied". They did more talking and laughing than studying. LoL! Left school around 6 with Ady, Jan, Shar and Syed.

I dont have work till next week. That means, I have 4 days to do anything I want. The problem is.. I'm not able to. Due to some reasons. Sad, eh? *sighs*

Watched the movie See Jane Date on Hallmark channel just now. Made me realise that sometimes, people just dont have to find the right guy/girl.. They'll appear, someday. =)

I dont know if I should be typing this out but I just have to.
I'm feeling scared, frightened and I've got butterflies in my tummy. My prince's really, really sick and the last msg I got from him said that he's on his way to the hospital. Which hospital I do not know..What's wrong with him I am not sure.. I'm not a good girlfriend, am I? I msged him back and tried calling him but he didnt answer. I'm praying and hoping that he's okay. Insya-Allah.

Please, please, please let him be okay.

princess @ 12:58 AM

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Too lazy to resize all the pics. Heheheee! Here are some of them. Enjoy~

Bintan's Beach

From another angle

View from my parent's bedroom

The one with the many clothes is our's.. LoL

Villa with the swimming pool view

Koi

princess @ 10:23 PM

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Tanjung Pinang was a bit boring cause all there is to do over there is shop, shop and shop.. Till you drop. Most of the stuffs are so cheap that you'll think of buying the whole shopping centre. Hahahaha! Well, I bought a bag, shoes and a wallet. =) Went swimming with the cousins at night. A lovely exercise. And the view was nice. Could see the moon and stars up above.

The next day, headed off to Bintan. Almost a 2 hour journey by van from Tanjung Pinang. But it was worth it. Cause Bintan was FABULOUS!

We had to check in at Nirwana Gardens for the villa Mum booked, Banyu Biru's under that management. And there's something about Bintan's resorts. The archiecture's very similar to each other. Thus my family and I thought that Nirwana Gardens is Bintan Lagoon Resort. I only realise that they're different when we couldnt find the restaurant mum wanted to eat at. Mum only realise they're different when she went walking along the beach with dad in the morning. But both resorts are beautiful. I like them both. Hehehehee!

Went swimming in the clear blue-green water. White sandy beach with lots of seashells. We got the whole beach to ourselves. Like as though our own private beach. After we got tired of the sea water, we jumped into the swimming pool. There's this 2 big beautiful pools. It was heaven!

The villa's incredible. We stayed in Suria 2. There's a pond in front of it. With ducks and fishes swimming in it. Cool!!!! Everything is provided. Torchlights, iron and ironing board, broom and mop, all kitchen stuffs - microwave, toaster, fridge.. And what's more. There's even a washing machine! Huahuahauahauhaa~

Went for a buffet dinner in the evening. I had lots of bread with butter, cheese and tom yam soup. Udon noodle, roast beef and potatoes, sweet and sour chicken, chili crabs, prawns, mussels, brownies and ice cream!!! By the time all of us were done, we had difficulty walking. Hahahahaaa! But walk we did. To our villa which wasnt that far away.

Next morning I had to wake up early to catch the morning ferry back to Singapore as I had a paper at 6. Nearly didnt get to board the ferry as the ferry was fully booked but luckily the hotel guy helped us. Syukur Alhamdulillah. It was a 45 min ride. Was reading my notes when I fell asleep. Only to get woken up by my handphone. Looked out of the window and saw Singapore. Ahhhhhh.. I'm home. =)

Took the taxi back home. Bathe, changed and went to school for more revision. But the freaking paper was difficult. Yan, Ady, Jan and CC agree with me. *sighs*

Last paper's tomorrow. Can hardly wait.
Will post up the pics later.
Have a lovely Tuesday.

princess @ 11:40 AM

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