I've just realised that when I'm in school with my friends, I'll automatically be in my happy, smiling mood. It doesnt matter that I'm not exactly feeling that. And sometimes, these crazy friends of mine managed to lift my mood up a bit.

I'm sorry but I'm in no mood to go out with you girls. Initially, I felt that I just had to get back at you all. For everytime you girls wanted me to plan an outing, I would. I'd get everything settled and stuffs only to have you all backing out, one by one. It didnt happen once or twice. Neither did it happen thrice. It happened too many times that I got sick of planning. But now, the main reason why I'm not going is because I have my exams. Dont force me. I've made up my mind. And no, I wont regret. Trust me.

I'm sorry but what the hell do you want? You didnt want to be friends in the first place. You said that it'll be a torture. And now you say that you constantly dream of me. That you miss me. That you want me to remember you as the guy who loves me. Wake up your blardy idea. You have her and I have him. I dont need you. Go away!

I dont need people like them in my life.. Oh how wish I can disappear for a little while. Maybe I should just stay at Sentosa and not come back. Hah!

Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe~

princess @ 6:57 PM

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The whole day I was feeling moody. But I was able to hide it well. No one knew or notice how I actually felt. Beneath the smile, I actually felt like lying down on the floor and sleep. I wanted so much to scream and tell people to leave me alone. Wanted so much to fall sick so that I didnt have to go to work.

The interview went well. Though it was short and I was feeling a bit nervous. I was the first student afterall. Stayed in school to finish up on techno project. Then left for work. Saw Yan at Dover MRT and it was nice having someone to talk to in the train. Didnt talk much at work. Wasnt in the mood. My eyes felt so heavy. And the world seemed to be spinning round and round. Manager too wasnt feeling well. But both she and I crack up when we're in mood.

I'm trying my darnest not to lose my control. Believe you me.. You wouldnt like me if I show you the pissed side of me. I dont like to show people my anger. But that doesnt mean that you can just walk all over my head. Like the Malay saying goes, Dah kasi muka.. Pijak kepala. Let me just warn you.. My patience is wearing thin. If possible.. Do try to avoid me at all cost.

I'm off to sleep.
I love my prince.
Good night~

princess @ 11:47 PM

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The first half of the day was spent at home. Lazying around. Aaron was still showing his tantrums. Luckily there was a Hindustan show starring Salman Khan and Shakrukh Khan. Wooooooohoooo! In the evening, went to meet the prince. He was late. But I didnt bite his head off when he showed up. I love him too much to do that. =)

Went to Sengkang where we just hang out. To the library where I saw a friend's friend. Talked to her for awhile before sitting down to read my magazine. Went to McD's for dinner before heading home. Could have taken 1 straight bus home but the prince wanted me to accompany him. And so I did. Got into an argument while waiting for the bus. His words hurt thus I cried. Silly me! Why do I always have to cry over everything. Thankfully, he didnt notice. He didnt even notice that I cried on the bus. And I thought I had no more tears when we alighted and waited for another bus at the bus stop but I was wrong. The tears came pouring out when he looked at me. tsk tsk! It's not a wonder why he calls me gembeng.

I'm tired of arguing with him, vice versa. I love my prince. Very, very much. Cant imgaine being with somebody else but him.

Dropped by the workplace for a little while to inform the manager that I'd be coming to work late tomorow. Reached home, watched a bit of television before started doing my resume for my csw. I like to do things last minute. =)

Think will go to bed now.
I have a role play interview tomorrow. Wish me luck.
Bonsoir.

princess @ 11:57 PM

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BORING!

princess @ 12:06 AM

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Woke up hearing the tune of SpongeBob SquarePants. Didnt want to miss watching it since I had already missed last week's episodes. Only to find out that it started at 9am. I was half an hour late. The tune I heard was the ending. *cries* Perhaps I should try waking up earlier tomorrow..

Anyways, I'm off to work now. Will think about finishing my assignments later. *yawns* Have a lovely Saturday. =)

princess @ 11:00 AM

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I'm not in love. It's just a faze that i'm going through. I'm always looking for something new. Don't go running away. Oh I'm not in love. I try to tell myself all the time. I just can't help how I feel tonight. So don't go running away..

princess @ 10:34 PM

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Finally, I wore a skirt to school. After many, many weeks. =)

I'm really pissed with Aaron. He is behaving strangely these couple of days. I hope he's not down with a virus or two. I'd hate for that to happen. For then, I'd have to call Dr ZuL for a house visit to check him up. Which prolly wont make Dr ZuL happy since he is afterall a busy man. =p Or I can always trick prince into trading his Jack for my Aaron. Yupz! He gave his computer a name too. Why Jack? No.. Not because it's Ady's boyfriend's name. He claimed that the name Jack sounds like a gangster's name. Hehehehee~ Anyway, Jack's better than Aaron. He's equipped with Windows XP. Which is totally awesome. Compared to Windows ME. Oppppppppps! Maybe I shouldnt compare them. Aaron might get jealous and start crashing on me. Sorry Aaron. You do know that I love you, rite? Eventhough you enjoy giving me problems and heartache with your stubborness and tantrums.

Ms BonBon's feeling much better. Though the pain comes back once in a while.. Did I mention that this is Ms BonBon's second accident. It happened years ago. When I was just 8 or 9yrs old. Monkey bars were "in" thing during those days. And I just had to try it out. I was swinging from one bar to another when I suddenly fell hard on Ms BonBon. Pain went shooting up my hips, spine, etc.. But I didnt cry. Cause I too shocked to feel the pain. Only when I reached home did I cry my eyes out. The pain was unbearable. I couldnt lie down on my back.. Neither could I sit. Mum brought me to the tukang urut the next day. And it hurt like hell I tell you. When she applied oil and massaged Ms BonBon, Ms Hips and Ms Spine. Screamed into the pillow when she applied pressure. That was the first and last time I went to a tukang urut. Phobia~ But it did feel a bit better. And for that, I'm thankful.

Speaking of accidents, there was also once when I nearly died due to choking. Dont exactly remember what I choked on but it was by far the scariest experience ever. Everything happened as a blur. I could see mum's mouth moving. As though screaming at me.. But I couldnt hear her words. At one point I couldnt see, even with my eyes wide open. Mum managed to save me in time. And I started crying after I could finally breathe. Car accidents I've been in. Not major ones, thankfully.. Then there are the minor accidents. Such as burns and such.

Enough said about accidents. I have to go wash my uniform. Will be working tomorrow. *sighs*

princess @ 10:10 PM

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Eeeeeeeeeeeeee.. Macam malas nak gi sekolah pun ada. Haiz!
Leceh ah. Nak pakai baju apa nie? hmmmmmmmmmmMM

princess @ 12:49 PM

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There's nothing to be jealous of. For I'm human too. Just like you. I have my own problems. It's just that sometimes, I chose not to voice it out. I prefer to just chuck it aside and be content with what I have and who I'm with. But I understand. I know the feeling. Sometimes it feels better to just voice it all out.

princess @ 11:45 PM

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I slipped and fell whilst going down the stairs in school. It was so embrassing! Furthermore, I fell hard on my bonbon and didnt realise that I fell until I saw this Chinese guy in front of me stopped walking and looked at me. I must have shocked him as well. Quickly took my bag and walked cautiously towards the ladies where I hid for a couple of minutes. Went to FC3 to meet Yan. Instead saw ZuL. He was dressed smartly. Complained to him that I fell. He gave me this blur look. Hahahahaaa~ Yan came over and while walking to class, told her that I fell. She in turn called Ady on her mobile and told Ady that I fell. Then saw Ady, Jan and Ian a couple of metres away. And all of them laughed at me. tsk! Evil people. =p The rest of the day in school was spent being teased by the kids. It seems that I've fallen the most number of times compared to the rest. *sighs* And my bonbon really hurts! I felt like crying a couple of times.

After school, went to meet up with my prince. He has gashes on his arms, shoulder and chest. Poor baby. He is in a worst state than me. Helped him put ointment on the gashes and then just talked. He's worried about his bike. You know.. Sometimes I get a teeny bit jealous. Cause he seems to care more about his bike than me. But after thinking about it, I realise that it's stupid of me to be jealous of a bike, a non-living thing. Haiz.. Total dumbness.

Feeling so sleepy at the moment. Think will sleep early tonight.
Bonsoir.
I love my prince.

princess @ 11:25 PM

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What did I do today?
I bathe Gemuk in the afternoon. Then cut my hair. Hehehehee! Before heading to work. Most of the staffs working today were Malay. Best sey! Nurul and I exchanged pictures and MMSes in between waiting for customers to make up their mind. Boring sey tunggu. Lebih baik berbual bual, kan? Heheh~

It wasnt busy so Nurul and I looked at the people walking by. Got a surprise visit from Naqia. Hehehehee! Was nice seeing her again.

The rest of the day passed as a blur. =)

Prince got into an accident yesterday. Thank goodness he wasnt badly hurt. But he's in pain. My poor baby.. *sighs* I hope he gets well soon.

Morning class again tomorrow. How boring. I'm off to sleep. Good night~

princess @ 12:24 AM

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Took this pic of myself while packing my bag for school just now. Used my mobile phone since I still havent charge the deegee cam's batteries.

I nearly cried trying to upload it to a particular website. What with the sudden slow internet connection. And my IE giving problems. Blardy hell! Asked help from ZuL. Luckily he was nice enough to help me out. But stupid MSN Messenger had to give me problems as well. *sighs* I nearly hit Aaron with a hammer.

Anyway, the day was spent at school. With Yan, Jan and Shar asking me if I'm okay cause I looked sad. Hahahahaa.. Software Engineering lecture was a total bore. Shar fell asleep while Yan and I had our earphones on, listening to the radio. After class, followed the girls to meet their boyfriends at FC3. Rudi and Chin Chung were also there. Hanged out for a little while before we went our our seperate ways. Shar and Syed went to BBDC. Yan, Azril and Chin Chung went to town. And I went out by myself. Stopped by the workplace on the way back to get some stuffs. Talked to the manager and aunties before heading to the library. Returned the long overdue books, sat down for a while to read before heading home. Scraped the idea of walking home since I didnt have the energy to do so. Didnt eat since morning. No appetite.

No school tomorrow. Yay! Will be able to wake up late. =)

p/s: By the way, I dont always look that way when I go to school. You can ask Jan or Ady or ZuL. Huahuahauaha~

I'm sorry but I cant take any more of this cold shoulder treatment..

princess @ 11:38 PM

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Initially, I was in a very good mood when I woke up. Cause the prince called in the middle of the night and if I'm not mistaken, we talked.. in between me falling asleep. I was still in a good mood when I left my house. Still in a good mood when I realise that I'm being followed by this Malay guy, all the way till Kranji MRT. Ewwww... Scary! Still in a good mood when I went for my lab. But all good things come to an end. Vina called me on my mobile whilst I was walking to my lecture. Talked to her about her boyfriend.. Was still in a good mood. Then suddenly, wham! She told me of the prince's MSN nick. Called him up to ask if it's true.. But he didnt answer. So I smsed him instead. And till now he hasnt called or smsed back.

Anyway at first, I felt angry and hurt. I didnt talk to Jan or Ady when I sat beside them in the lecture theatre. Heard Ady talked to Jan about her boyfriend.. After awhile, joined in the conversation. Poor Jan had to listen to us go on and on about our boyfriends. Yan came an hour later. She didnt talk to us when she sat beside us but after listening to our conversation, she too joined in. Seems that she's having problems with her boyfriend as well. Hahaha! So there you have it, 4 girls. 3 of them talking about their boyfriends and the other one just sitting quietly listening. I think we might have scare Jan off. LoL~

But dont be mistaken. We love our boyfriends dearly.. It's just that sometimes things happen and it just feels better just talking to someone else who understands and is in an almost same position as us.

I'm not mad at the prince anymore. Neither do I feel hurt. I've decided not to make a big deal out of it. But I do wish he would return my calls.

Went to work after school. Didnt get enough sleep thus was really tired. Even fell asleep in the train on my way to workplace. After a couple of hours working.. Manager saw and understood. She gave me time off to rest awhile. Furthermore, there was a new trainee.. who helped out.

School again tomorrow. Thank God I wont be working though. Think will out go for a little while after that. Chances are, I'll be alone. *sighs*

By the way, it's Hakim's birthday. MMSed him then called him just to sing an out-of-tune birthday song. But he likes my voice anyway. Hahahahaha! The stupid things I do. Oh well.. Good night!

princess @ 11:58 PM

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Have you heard of this song before? I heard it yesterday on Ria and simply love it. I dont know why but I prefer old songs compared to new ones. Anyway, here's the lyrics..

Segalanya Mungkin - Headwind

Malam siang ku lalui
Dengan debaran di hati
Pengalaman teman-teman
Membuat ku rasa bimbang
Di dalam kehidupan
Segalanya berkemungkinan

Hari ini aku tahu
Ku tak meraguimu
Kerna telah jadi bukti
Kau setia pada janji
Tetapi esok hari
Tak tahu apa 'kan terjadi

Ku ingin pertahankan
Sebuah kejujuran
Ingin ku bersamamu
Ke akhir hayatku

Namun ku tak berani
Berjanji dengan pasti
Kita hanya merancang
Tuhan yang menentukan

Jangan kau salah mengerti
Dengan pengakuan ini
Usah disalah tafsirkan
Bukan ku tak sayang

Ku mahu kau menginsafi
Dengan kehidupan ini
Segala berkemungkinan
Untuk terjadi

Work just now was alright. There were many staffs therefore it wasnt really tiring. Then during break, sat down with my manager and just talked. One of my other manager's been transfered to another outlet. So sad. We were always joking about not liking working with him and now he's gone. *sighs*

My manager commented that she's never seen me in a bad mood before. That I'm always in a happy go lucky mood. Ahhhhh.. It's true then. I dont usually show people the "sad" side of me. Cause most times, I dont exactly know how to put into words how I feel. But I love to cry. And those unfortunate ones who got to see the "sad" side of me usually dont know what to do. For to them.. I've always been the strong one. The one who's always laughing, cracking jokes and being stupid. The one that doesnt care about the sad things that happen, always brushing problems aside. But I'm only human. I can only take so much. I break down from time to time. And I find blogging a way of destressing. Only that when I blog my heart out.. I hurt people in the process. Which isnt nice, I must say. For those people are really dear to me. So I'm usually in a dilemma. I'll always be blogging my heart out, publish it, read it once through.. decide that I'll be hurting someone's feelings, delete the entry and blog again, this time on a safer topic. That is, about what I did during the day. I want a freedom of blogging (Get it? A freedom of speech. A freedom of blogging. Hehehehe). I want to blog without having to worry about how others would feel. I want them understand that I have no intention whatsoever to hurt them.

Do you find me a selfish brat? Cause I usually get what I want without giving a thought to others? But I do work hard you know. For the things that I want. I bought my own deegee cam. I bought my own watch. I bought my own perfume. I bought my own handphone. Maybe I'm a selfish brat cause I'm always wanting people to give in to me. Wanting them to do the things I want. Wanting them to be there when I need them. Insisting that they leave everything they're doing just so I can meet them. Not understanding their problems. Always thinking about myself. Am I? A selfish brat?

Mum said that it isnt easy being in a relationship. There are the ups and downs. That sometimes I have to give in, compromise and understand. I try to give in, compromise and understand. But everytime I try, I fail. My anger takes control. Then every thought about giving in, compromising and understanding disappears. And if it's too much to handle, I'll even cry. I'm such a cry baby, arent I? Oh and stupid thoughts will enter my head.

I love my prince a lot. I do want to be with him forever and ever. I can never imagine a life without him. He's not always around but his presence is. He's always in my heart and on my mind. I know that he cant always come to me when I need him. He too has his own life to live. If only I can understand that.. But I'll try.

I'll be working again later. Morning shift. Better go to sleep now or I wouldnt be able to wake up. Good night. Enjoy your Sunday. =)

princess @ 1:24 AM

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BLAH!

princess @ 12:28 AM

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I'm beginning to like pink more than blue. *gasps*

Yesterday's outing with Ady, Jan, Yan and Shar was lots of fun. I was the last to arrive, as usual. But I had a good reason. Just got back from my prac at BBDC. Anyway, we had dinner at Swensen's. We laughed more than we talked. =) Everyone felt so bloated after eating the soup, main course and ice cream. And so we walked from Plaza Singapura all the way to Esplanade. Laughing, making stupid comments and got lost trying to find our way. The prince was already there waiting. When we finally reached our destination, tried calling him on his mobile but it was off. Told the girls to shout out his name and they did. LoL~ Then all of us saw a guy who looked like him. I didnt think it was him. Cause his back was facing us. Turned out that it was him. Oh how embarassing. I cant even recognise my own boyfriend. tsk tsk!

The girls were exhausted after all the walking.. Especially Jan and Shar. Yan and Ady went on and on.. Like the Energizer Bunny. It was funny. Left around 10pm and he sent me home. We had a little argument before going our seperate ways. *sighs*

You know.. I dont like arguing/fighting with him. Somehow, it seems to be happening more frequently nowadays. Sometimes I do feel like giving up. But when I ask myself if I'm ready to let go.. The answer's always no. I want it to work. *sobs*

He called me later at night. I was still feeling a teeny weeny bit down. And so I was quiet during most part of the conversation. I felt bad but I really dont know what to say. Part of me was afraid that I'd say something stupid that will make him angry or worst, make him leave. Couple of minutes later he decided to go to sleep. So we hanged up.

He said that I dont understand what he's going through. Perhaps I dont but I'm trying to. And maybe I should try harder. Perhaps I should tell him what I'm feeling as well. That I'm not asking for much. I'm just asking for attention. I want to feel safe and constantly be reminded that I'm being loved and missed. I'm sure that is what all girls want as well. Eventhough we may appear strong.. who actually knows that beneath that facade, there is a vulnerable side of us.. A side that longs and yearns for someone to say that everything's going to be alright and make things seem better.

Haiz.
Anyways, tomorrow will mark the end of my busy week. I can hardly wait.

princess @ 3:19 PM

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Beneath the happy, smiling exterior.. there actually lies a broken heart. Alone and crying.. Dont bother asking why. It wont tell you.

princess @ 12:14 AM

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I'm in school. The lecturer let us leave the class earlier cause we were on our best behaviour today. Cause you see, there was an observation. The head lecturer sat in our class to observe her teach.

He called me during my break. I'm so happy. Lalalalalalalalala~ It would be nicer if we could meet today. But alas, I'm going to the Disney On Ice - Beauty and The Beast later with mum. And no, I dont think I'm a little old for that. Hmph! Will try to take pics. Hopefully mum remembered to bring the deegee cam.

Okies, I'm off to find Shar and Yan. Then go for my last lecture of the day.
I'm going to have a blast sleeping through it. Hahahahaaa.
Toodles!

princess @ 2:44 PM

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Hi. A quick update.
I'm both emotionally and physically tired. Honestly, I just feel like dropping dead. Had been juggling school and work the past 2 days. School in the morning and afternoon.. Work from evening to night. Home seems like a hotel to me now. I only go home to rest. Hah! "Nice".

Been a week since I last saw him. Wouldnt be able to meet him for the rest of the week as well, I guess. *sighs* But I need him! I really, really do. *sobs* Oh how I miss him. Do you think you could somehow make time to meet me for a little while? Preferably on a day that I'm not too busy.

I'm off to work again.
I give up.

princess @ 3:00 PM

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My schedule for this week's really packed. I might not be able to blog as frequent as I use to. Try not to miss me.. =)
Take care~

Take a chance.. Nothing's for sure.

princess @ 12:13 AM

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Friday's outing to Lau Pa Sat was lots of fun. Too many satays and laughter made me feel a teeny bit unwell. Decided against going back earlier and truly enjoyed myself. Perhaps we should have more outings like this. =) Left at around 11 with Jan. Only to reach home a little after midnight. Thankfully, everyone was asleep (grandma included) except for mum. But she didnt scream at me or anything. Perhaps because I called her to inform her that I'll be home later than usual. Hehehehee...

Anyways, watched Gladiator on Channel i followed by Scorpion King on HBO. Only went to sleep at around 3am. Sleeping in the living room isnt fun. I miss my bed. Booo hooo hooo! Woke up around 10, had breakfast, bathe, changed and followed the parents and grandma to Geylang. Bought tudung, blouses, food and etc.. before heading to Arab Street. Mum bought for me the cloth to make baju raya. Oooooooo... I absolutely love the colour and material. =)

Then in the evening, an aunt and my cousins came over. Had been a long time since I saw them. Miss them lots. Was nice catching up on stuffs. Couple of hours later, another aunt came over with her family. Followed by another cousin of mine who just knocked off from work. Wooooooooohoooooooooo! Family gathering. Though not everybody was there, it was still lots of fun. What with the mums, daughters and sons talking about handphones. Comparing the functions and etc. And as usual, they were in my room. Not that I mind.. Since it's unusually clean. Huahuahauahauahua!

Helped a cousin configure her phone for the MMS/GPRS settings. Nearly gave up a couple of times cause I couldnt figure out her handphone. It's so complicated. Perhaps it's so because I'm used to Nokia phones. Anyway, got it to finally work after calling the customer service for the 3rd time. Furthermore, the guy was very helpful. *grins* Had ice cream and lollipop, the cousin's treat since I configured her phone. *jumps around* More talking, laughing, teasing and playing with our phones before saying goodbye.

Opppppppps! I gotta go now.
Something came up.
Have a lovely Sunday peeps.
Toodles~

princess @ 11:46 AM

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hmmmmmmmmmmmmMM...
Does my baby bunny really look evil? Is it because of the red eyes? Then perhaps I should get coloured lenses for him. Will green do? Or blue? Perhaps brown?

princess @ 10:54 AM

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I'm supposed to start doing the housework the moment I open my eyes.. But nah. Think will do it later. LoL! Grandma's coming over later at night. No idea what for. Not that I mind anyway. It'd be nice to see her again. And since she'll be sleeping in my room, I wont be able to blog tonight. So, I'd better blog to my heart's content now. Hehehehee.

It'll be a busy day for me today. Insya-Allah everything goes on smoothly. I have my prac at 12.55. Will be meeting Siti at the bus stop since she wants to go together. After prac, will be going to Civic Center to settle some stuffs. Head home to do the housework. Then get ready and go out to meet the kids at City Hall. Dont know if prince wants to come along. Wish he does. =) Will try not to reach home late, like normal times, since grandma's here. Ada ajer kena marah. Anak dara tak bagus balik rumah lambat lambat. Khekehkehekehkee. Alahai~ Furthermore, William Hung's on tv tonight!!!!!!

I might not be going away tomorrow. *sighs* Was so looking forward to the getaway. I'm badly in need of a breath of fresh air. 1 more day to the weekend. 3 more days to the start of school. Blargh! I'm not looking forward to that.

Anyway, was blog hopping when I read something I agree with. Quoting Ayshy,
If you judge people, you have no time to love them.

Wow! I better stop judging people. Hehehehehee! I have to go clean my room now. Have a wonderful friday. =)
Au revoir!

princess @ 10:40 AM

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It was raining heavily when I reached BBDC. And it was so cold! I was all alone and didnt know what to do. Cause it's the first time that it rained during my practical. Anyways, ask a Chinese guy if it's compulsory to put on the raincoat. He said yes and off I went to put on one. And boy does it stink!!!!! I nearly died, I tell you. And it was 2 sizes bigger. LoL~ Couldnt be bothered to change. Got a Malay instructor who is a couple of years older than me. Told us to get the bikes and wait for him. Went one round around the circuit. At first I was scared and my hands were trembling because it was so cold!!!! But after a couple of rounds, my confidence grew. And having a boyfriend who rides, helps. Heheheheheheeee~

The instructor kept praising me. *kembang skejap* He even told one of the guys in my class to observe me while I went through the course. Huahauhauaha! I did better than rest. Yessa~ It rained heavier after that. But it didnt stop me from speeding. Hahahahaa. Nice feeling.. The cold wind and rain against my face. Oh but it wasnt a nice feeling when I took my wet gloves and raincoat off. Cause the raincoat didnt do a good job of keeping my clothes dry. *sighs* At the end of the lesson, instructor praised me again. Told the other guys that I had done very well. *blushes* Took my book from him, said thanks and went off.

Not gonna meet the girls today. I'm feeling so sleepy. Furthermore, Waty has to settle some stuffs, Vina has to finish up her assignment and I need sleep.

I was locked outside the house for a couple of minutes. Didnt bring my housekeys. And whilst waiting, snapped a picture of dear Gemuk. Simply adorable!

princess @ 6:56 PM

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Let's hope that it wouldnt rain today..
I'm off to BBDC. Hopefully the apek doesnt fail me again. Or I'll have to **** him upside down. Hmph! Might be meeting the girls for our once-a-week dosage of each other later. I miss them sooooooo much. Oh and no guys are allowed. Hah! Vina made that rule.. Khekehkehekehkeee. Poor prince and P cant come along. =p

Have a good Thursday. Smile!

princess @ 1:07 PM

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I have a confession to make...
I love my prince. And I'm falling deeper and deeper in love with him. Which isnt a bad thing, I must say. It's a nice feeling. Though at times I dont understand how his mind works and he makes me mad.. vice versa, the happy times somehow makes up for it.

Went for dinner with him at Vista Point. Then hanged out. Took pictures of him with my camera phone. Cam excited gitu. LoL!
Here are some of them -->

Not bad eh the pics? It's clear. And the model's cute, isnt he? Just like me. Khekehekhekehkee..

princess @ 1:54 AM

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Usah Tinggal Daku Kekasih - Exists

Usah tinggal daku kekasih
Usah biar aku bersedih
Percintaan ini memang zalim
Tak bermata tak behati
Seolah-olah kini teracunnya dunia
Kita pernah riang bersama
Kita pernah rasai duka
Mereka ingin kita berpisah
Tanpa harga tanpa nilai
Tanpa mu aku sepi

Ku tetap (akan) akan berpegang janji
Untuk hidup bersamamu
Walau diri sengsara
Tiada lagi air mata
Dapat ku merayu untuk bersamamu
Jangan tinggalkan aku walau sementara
Jangan biarkan dendam mempermainkan kita
Di mataku hanya kau penawar dan syurga
Usah engkau tinggalkan
Tinggal daku kekasih

princess @ 2:00 PM

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Shootz!
I cant sleep..
Oh well. I might as well blog, rite? Hehehehee~

Monday's paper was hell. Yesterday's paper was heaven. Today's paper was earth. LoL! And did you know.. I just notice that my contacts in Baby is lesser. (In case you're wondering who Baby is.. It's my new hp. Hehehehe! Aaron's the computer. Baby's the handphone. I just love naming my things). I only realise so when I saw ZuL yesterday while going down the stairs. Saw the way he walked, his shirt, hair, height and so on.. And instantly knew that I had to call him and double confirm if it's really him. Only to not find his name on Baby. Argh!!!!!!!!!!!! And so I ran down the freaking stairs, all the way along the freaking corridor whilst calling his name every couple of seconds. He didnt turn! I was beginning to have doubts. Is it not him? Or is it really him but just that he's just deaf? LoL! Anyways, finally caught up with him. But I was out of breath. Then got his number, wished him luck and went to FC3 to find Yan and Shar.

Ian was already there. Ady and Jan came later. Then went to the plaza to join Chin Chung and study. Ngiap Kiang came later. You know, I'm pretty lucky to have friends like them. =) Studying with them makes it less stressful and more fun. Somehow I feel that all of us got closer this semester. Like as though we belong in a gang. Heheheheee. Can hardly wait for this Friday.

I miss my prince. I want to meet him but I doubt he was to. *sighs*
Think will disappear for awhile.
No school till Monday. Will have to think of things to do to occupy my time. Dont wish to die of boredom. *yawns*

princess @ 1:18 PM

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Yay!
After 3 days of trying to cramp notes of various modules, I can finally ENJOY! And ENJOY! I will. After I get my much needed sleep. Hehehehee..

Oh! I finally got my McD's breakfast. Woooooooohoooooooooo~

princess @ 12:20 PM

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Bonjour!
Got tired of waiting? Well, I'm going to reveal the lastest love of my life. Hehehehe...
Here it is -->

Thanks to mum and bro. I'm one happy princess again. =)

princess @ 10:05 AM

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Let me describe how I'm feeling in this 1 sentence..

I can hardly wait for you to be with me..

Curious as to what I mean? Wanna know who/what it is? Stay tuned.. LoL~

princess @ 11:09 PM

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Let's see now.. What shall I blog about? Nothing interesting happened. Neither did I do anything different. Apart for the fact that there wasnt a reason to smile.

I feel like crying but the tears just wont come out. I feel like shouting and screaming but I dont want others to think that I've gone mad. I feel like being angry but for what reason? I feel like giving up but on what? I have no blardy idea what I want.

I'm not going through depression am I? Nah.. I dont think so. Then what is it called? This weird phase I'm going through? Lovesick? Hah! Dont think so either..

Perhaps I need someone to tell me that it's going to be okay. Perhaps I need a hug. Perhaps I need a kiss. Perhaps I need money. *grins* Perhaps I need someone to just listen to me talk about anything I want. Perhaps I need someone to just be by my side. Perhaps I need someone to understand me. Perhaps I need to know that I'm being missed. Perhaps I need to know that I'm loved.

I'm going to sleep. If I'm still feeling this way when I wake up, I'm going away. To where I do not know. Hopefully, someplace nice.. Where I dont have to think. =)
Bonsoir. Au revoir.

You're in my mind more often than you know..

princess @ 1:07 AM

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Went out yesterday to collect my tix since I got bored of staring at my notes and ~~higlhlighting~~ highlighting them. Guess what? I'm going to watch Disney On Ice - Beauty & The Beast. Yay!!!!! Khekhekehekhekehe...

Pay's in. It's the least.. Compared to other times. *sighs* Gotta go ask for more days to work. Need money!

I'm off to wherever wherever. Have a lovely Saturday.
Toodles!

princess @ 10:54 AM

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Shootz!
Was suppose to blog previous entry in French. Ah.. Oh well. Nevermind. =)
Anyways, more pics of yesterday can be found here.
Eh! How come I smell curry? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmMM

princess @ 11:25 AM

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Perhaps I'm just being paranoid. Perhaps I'm back to thinking negatively.. But somehow I sense that something is wrong. You're not your usual self. If there is indeed something wrong, why wont you want to talk about it with me? But if there isnt, why arent you reassuring me that there isnt. I'm torn. I dont know what to do. To leave you by yourself? So as to give you time alone to think about the things that are bothering you. Or to be a nosy, unwanted company who makes your life more difficult.

I dont wish to pester you. Or to pressurize you. But please.. Tell me what you want. What you want me to do. Cause you see, I cant read minds. If you want to talk, I'm willing to listen. But if you dont, I'll go away..

princess @ 11:18 AM

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Went to BBDC. Then to school. After which went to City Hall. Met Vina first. Followed her on a shopping spree. She bought for waty, her and me this thingy for our handphones. Waty's is a butterfly, her's is a bumble bee and mine is a princess. LoL! Then met up with Waty and Hanafi.. Prince came a couple of minutes later. Headed to Pizza Hut for dinner. Vina's treat. Thanks darling. Lovely night. With lovely people. Here are some pictures.. Will post the rest tomorrow or something. =)

This is what we had..

The Girls' Handphones..

Waty and Hanafi..

Vina and Waty..

My prince and me..

Mat Handphone! =p

He looks so cute when he smiles.. *faints*
Hehehehee..

princess @ 12:50 AM

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Somebody is 1K richer!!!!!! Tunggu apa lagik? Open table ah~ Spend here, spend there. Belanja me, can? =p

I'm going to watch LOTR, Return of the King on vcd before leaving the house to do errands. Hehehehee..

Oh.. we''ll see if I can make it yah, darling? Cant promise you.

princess @ 10:33 AM

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Thought of typing a very long entry.. But I'm feeling so sleepy. Especially so since I had to check Aaron for spywares and stuffs. *yawns* Oh by the way, thanks ZuL for the softwares. =)

Quick update..
Thought of the prince whilst on the bus home. Thought that I heard the sound of his bike when I alighted at my stop. Turned around but it was a different bike. Crossed the road and was walking home when my handphone rang. Heart skipped a beat when I saw Prince!!! on the screen. Hehehehe. Answered the phone only to nearly drop it when he said that he was under my block. Arkz! Perfect timing. How did he know what time I get off from work? I never told him. Ah... Sixth sense. *grins* Anyway, it was a lovely surprise. Was nice to see his face after a day's work. You know, I still dont know how he always manage to find my blog even after I had taken lots of trouble changing the address. I guess I have to try harder. Right, prince? =)

I'm off to sleep. Got tired of browsing through Frienster as well. Guess what? I stumbled across this unknown person's page and saw a picture of... Wont tell you. It's for me to know and you not to find out. LoL!

princess @ 1:31 AM

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One of the disadvantages of wearing contact lens and having big eyes is that once you rub your eye, the contact lens may pop out without you noticing. That happened to me last night. LoL! Had to get a small torchlight for bro to help see if the contact lens had indeed pop out or if it's stucked somewhere in a corner of the eye. Scary uh.. But no harm done. Except for the pain of poking the actual eye instead of the contact lens. =p

I'm sick and tired of thinking negative thoughts. I'm turning over a new leaf. From now on, it's gonna be positive thinking! POSITIVE! Say NO to NEGATIVITY! *grins*

Oppppppppppppps! Gotta go bathe and change. Have to drop by the optometrist to get a new pair before going to work. Blargh~

Let's try to make this work baby.. You & me.

princess @ 3:15 PM

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What bothers me the most is the lack of interest you're showing me...

princess @ 2:35 PM

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Just for fun..
Got it off Rugayyah's..

We'll have to keep McGonagall away from that lemon tree

Pull that stick outta your arse Professor
McGonagall..and lighten up! We really need to
keep McGonagall away from that lemon tree..

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princess @ 12:03 AM

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Shootz! I'm in pain. Stupid me. I just had to try to stop the lift door from closing with my feet. And the blardy door didnt show any mercy! Thus poor feet got stucked. With me too shocked to cry out.. But I did pull it out. Only after I felt the pain. tsk tsk! I'm lucky if I can still walk and go to work tomorrow. What the hell is wrong with me? Am I thinking with my bottom? *sighs*

Anyway, the rest of the day was spent with the parents. Not entirely a good idea cause they took turns "talking" about the warning letter. Haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz. No comments. But it was nice nonetheless. Got to spend time with them. Had dinner at a foodcourt in Jurong where we saw a cousin of mine and his girlfriend. Had Claypot Noodle and Goreng Pisang. Lovely. After the meal, went to the mosque for Maghrib prayers. Only to get chased by a cute small lost puppy. My God! I ran all the way to the restroom and stayed there until the coast was clear. Hahahahaaa! Yeah, I find them cute and adorable at times.. But only if they're like 2 metres away from me. =p Anyway, daddy then told me that he saw the puppy looking at the men praying. As though supervising them. LoL!

Went to collect my replacement SIM card at West Mall. Tempted with the idea of buying a new phone. Was looking at the different phones when a stranger started talking to me. Talked back and compared the different functions of the phones. In the end, decided not to cause pay's not in yet and I have no idea how much I'm getting. Dont wish to overspend. In truth, dont even feel like spending it at all. If only I've got no bills to pay.. No kids to feed. Hah! What am I saying.. I DONT have kids! Huahuahauahuaa...

Prince didnt msg or call the whole day. Neither did I.
But I did give him a ring a minute ago. No answer. He smsed to say that he's going to Johor instead. Nice. Just hope that he takes care of himself.

I'm off to sleep. Feet's really hurting..
Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

princess @ 11:53 PM

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I mentioned something about being gone for a few days, didnt I? Sod it. Blogging is like theraphy to me. *grins*

I've done the housework.. Studying doesnt appeal to me. I know, I know.. A couple of months more and I get to enjoy. But do I really? Get to enjoy? I have to start thinking about what I want to do after this. I have to plan and work for it. It doesnt help that some people keep reminding me of this fact. I understand that they care for me but cant they see that they're stressing me out? I thought I knew what I wanted. I thought I knew where I wanted to go. But that was before. This is now. There are many possibilities. I might want to go overseas to study. I might want to further my studies in the course I'm currently taking. Which I must honestly say is not really appealing. =p I thought of going to NIE. Not because it'll secure me a job. I simply like idea of teaching. Being one of those who get to nurture the young minds of the future. I've always wanted to teach. Ever since I first helped out at mum's former, former, former workplace. Then worked as a kindergarten teacher for a couple of months whilst waiting for poly to start. hmmmmmmmmmmMM... Perhaps I had make a mistake eh? Perhaps I should have just stayed at the centre. But the possibility of me taking up a diploma while working there will take years. Something my colleagues told me and I saw with my own eyes. My qualifications' better than my supervisor's. Haha! Furthermore, it's too far away from home.

The only easy way out that I can come up with is to marry a rich man. LMAO! Imagine that.. Stay at home, with nothing to do. There is no need to cook, wash or clean. Can always hire help. Hehehehe! Lots of money to spend. Maybe give birth once in a while. Haha! Boring life. Anyway, I'm too much in love with my prince.. =)

Another thing that bothers me is something personal. As much as I dont want to think about it, it's forever popping in my mind. Why is it that I always come to know of things without intending to? I feel that I'm better off not knowing. Then I can live in my little princess world thinking that everything is okay. But I cant, can I? I already have lots of evidence to prove it. I already know everything I need to know. There's no point denying it any longer. And it's making me so confused. I dont know what I should do. I'm thinking of going with the flow. But for how long? How long must this go on? For how long must I suffer in silence? I'm just hoping that it's not for long..

Okay, how do I write a letter to the lecturer regarding my poor attendance? Did I mention that she marked me as absent when I came late? Well.. That explains it. I only skipped once or twice. The rest was because of my lateness. tsk! hmmmmmmmmmMM.. Perhaps I should start by -->

Dear Maam,
I would like to apologise for my poor attendance. But I do believe that you have marked me absent for the times that I came to class late. I know that it's very irresponsible of me. (I'm trying to be nice here..) But if you were in my shoes, having to wake up early in the morning, rush to catch the bus and "play rugby" with the other train passegers just so I can get to school.. You'll understand. Especially so if you're lucky and get to stand beside someone who didnt bathe. =) But then again, you wont. Cause in your eyes, I'm still irresponsible! *gasps* Well honestly, to hell with that. I'll find a way to come to your class early from now on. Even if it kills me. Oh by the way, I have a problem trying to figure out what you say in class. Your accent is KILLING me and the rest of my classmates. Do try to speak proper Singaporean English. Thank you.

How? You think it'll do the trick? LoL!

princess @ 2:23 PM

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For my prince..

I wanted to tell you,
in words of my own..
You're the most precious person,
that I've ever known.

The whisper of your voice,
the warmth of your touch,
so many little things that make me love you so much.

The way you support me,
and help with my emotions,
the way that you care and show such devotion.

The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
lost with you forever is where I want to be.

The way that I feel when you're by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.

The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.

How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.

I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real.

princess @ 11:58 PM

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The prince came in the afternoon on his trusty brand new shiny bike. He got a little pissed since I took such a long time getting ready. Well, I ~~feel~~ fell asleep while waiting for his sms. Stopped by mum's workplace to get her signature for the authorization form before setting off for Labrador Park.

Mr Sun was really shining.. It was so hot. My ice cream melt faster than I could lick it. tsk! We went to look at the boats passing by before heading to Mount Faber. Nice view from the top. I believe I can even see my house from way up there. Hahahahaa! The prince was very cute. Singing his heart out whilst recording it on his handphone. I recorded it on mine as well. Hehehehee~ And it cracked me up when he forgot the lyrics and tried hard to remember it. Went to Esplanade to collect my tix. But stupid me forgot to bring along my IC therefore was unable to collect it. *slaps forehead* We then went back to Woodlands where we had dinner at McD's and bought a handphone casing for him before he sent me home.

Mum was surprised that I was home early. Then she started nagging about the warning letter. *sighs* I didnt mean to sound rude but I was just plain tired. Tired of fighting, tired of thinking, tired of trying to explain, tired of everything and everyone! At that moment, nothing mattered anymore. I just felt like giving up.

Talked to Waty on MSN. It felt really, really good. As though a heavy weight had been lifted off my chest. But I'm still feeling a teeny weeny bit confuse. *sighs*

I might be gone for a couple of days. I think I need time off to think.

princess @ 11:25 PM

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Events of last night caused lots of headache. Who would have thought that things might have been different if I had done a different thing. Well, no point in regretting. I have a life to live. =)

On another hand, I'm so happy! Know why? It's because I finally got my warning letter!!! And I got an extra one as well. How cool! Wooooooooohoooooooooooo~ But only one of them's red. The other is white. How come eh? Weird. Daddy wasnt too thrilled about it. Told him not to worry.. That I wont skip/be late for any more classes. =) See, I can be nice if I want to.

I'm thinking of heading down to the library later. Gotta return the books I've borrowed. I wonder when is the due date? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmMM..

Okies, I'm off to have my breakfast. Have a lovely Monday. Hopefully Mr Sun's out the whole day. Au revoir!!!! =)

princess @ 11:32 AM

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