The bus was late again today.. Thank goodness Ady and Shu Hui waited for me at Khatib or I'd have to go to work alone. He dropped at Ang Mo Kio as he wasnt feeling well and I didnt want his condition to get worse. =)

Got my timetable today. Must say that it's pretty okay. Think will work on Mondays, Wednesdays and Saturdays..

Last day of the year 2003. I've no New Year resolutions. Never have them and probably never will either. Heheheee.. Too lazy to think.

An hour till freedom. I'm so hungry! Need food~!!!!!!



princess @ 11:56 AM

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Too lazy to update. Furthermore, not feeling particularly well either.


princess @ 5:59 PM

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Wasnt feeling well in the early morning. Had to run to the toilet before I puke on Aaron. Had to be due to something I ate. *sighs* And the headache didnt help either. He was concerned, when he noticed that I was constantly on away mood in MSN and asked why. I was irritating. Couldnt think. Pain override all thoughts or feelings. Couldnt sleep either.. Finally couldnt take it anymore, swallowed a couple of aspirins, said goodbye and read a book to make myself fall asleep.

Didnt want to wake up and go to work. Felt like taking half day leave but doubt I'm able to. 90% attendence or else I'll have to repeat my ITP. Suckies! Hmph~

Someone threw up in the train. The smell almost killed me. Couldnt even smell my Escada! Arkz~
Reached the office half an hour late. Hhuhuhuhuhu! Who cares anyway.. 5 days to freedom! But, since it's a half day on Wednesday, public holiday on Thursday, on leave on Friday and half day on Saturday.. That only leaves me with tomorrow! Yipppppppppppppppe~

hmmmmmmmmmmMM... Back to work. Gonna try to finish this last scene before lunch.
Have a wonderful Monday!

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life.. I'm walking away oh to find a better day~


princess @ 10:27 AM

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You dont even know what you want.. And you expect me to know what I'm suppose to do. Leaving is better than staying around and not know for how long I'll be in your shadows.

You dont know how I feel... Neither do I know how you're feeling.
I see with my eyes.. Not with my heart.
What I see is what I believe to be true..
Your actions speaks louder than words.


princess @ 12:19 AM

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Work was alright.. Got to leave early since there were extra staffs to help during closing. Not many fussy customers either. But boy was it tiring. Was on my feet a whole 7 hours! Phew~

Was feeling kinda bored.. So I asked some people on my MSN list this question --> If you didnt know me and you looked at my picture. How old do you think I am?

Answers:
1) I DoN't FoRgIvE, AnD I DoN'T FoGeT...( NoW,AfTeR So LonG, FiNallY I HaVe FounD ThE OnE! Luv U My SaYanG!) says:
hmm 19

2) http://zuldevil.rocks.it (I'm Back!!!) says:
i'm not very good at guessing ages as it is... but i'd say maybe.... late teens...?
Sesungguhnya aku tersangatlah penat.. says:
late teens as in?
Sesungguhnya aku tersangatlah penat.. says:
18? 19?
Sesungguhnya aku tersangatlah penat.. says:
17?
http://zuldevil.rocks.it (I'm Back!!!) says:
kena fikir dulu lah
Sesungguhnya aku tersangatlah penat.. says:
a number please
http://zuldevil.rocks.it (I'm Back!!!) says:
around that range... maybe 18?
Sesungguhnya aku tersangatlah penat.. says:
wooohooooooooo!
Sesungguhnya aku tersangatlah penat.. says:
i looked 2 yrs younger
Sesungguhnya aku tersangatlah penat.. says:
LoL
http://zuldevil.rocks.it (I'm Back!!!) says:
ahahhaa
http://zuldevil.rocks.it (I'm Back!!!) says:
why do you ask?
http://zuldevil.rocks.it (I'm Back!!!) says:
your wrinkles are hidden lah, that's why

3) ^ ^ ~ BUSTED ~ ^ ^ says:
16

4) Bersenjata Kekatah,Berperisai Seni says:
18
Bersenjata Kekatah,Berperisai Seni says:
19

5)herda says:
hmmm
herda says:
tough question
herda says:
maybe 24

Person number 2 was just jealous... Huahauhauahauahu! And thanks Herda. You're the only one who said I looked older than I am. Oh well.. It was just for fun. *yawns*

Oh by the way... Some people actually thought that I'm 19. *shakes head*


princess @ 11:39 PM

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Oh how I tossed and turned the whole night. The mind didnt seem to want to shut down. It was as though telling me to reconsider what I've done. Oh please.. What more am I suppose to do? Dreamt of everything that had happened. Dreamt of the words he said. Dreamt of his smile, his face, his hair.. his eyes. *sighs* Let go.. Let go.. Let go..

Funny thing was.. I dont know whether this was a dream or whether it happened last night. He told me to give him time. To wait for him. And being the impatient me, I shook my head. I dont want to wait any longer.It was now or never. Ah.. Dream or reality, eh?

Anyways, Daddy called just now.. Asking me what I'm doing. Told him I was sleeping of course! He laughed and told me that they're leaving for Penang. I said okay and have a safe trip.. and hanged up. Quickly went to sleep before I started crying again. I'm a cry baby, eh? LoL~

Gonna make breakfast.. Feed Gemuk then later head to work. *yawns*
1 week to school re-open. I can hardly wait. That is if the timetable doesnt sucks. =)


princess @ 11:18 AM

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Okay.. I'm done crying.
Mummy, daddy, bro.. Please come back home soon. I miss you guys... Though you're only gone a couple of hours, and will only be back in hundreds of hours more.

I dont like being far away from my parents and brother. But I dont have a choice. Stupid ITP. *sighs* I guess I'm just too attached. Just like I'm too attached to him. But for his case.. I have to let go. I have to.. I have to..

Mummy, daddy, bro.. Please, please come back! =(


princess @ 11:49 PM

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You know.. While in the taxi.. The pakcik was tuned in to Best 104FM and they were playing all the sad, oldies songs. Tears threatened to fall once more but I bit my lips to stop them from doing so. Among the songs were, Tak Ingin Sendiri by Hetty Koes Endang and Kaulah segalanya by Ruth Sahanaya. *sighs*

Here's the lyrics to the songs..

Tak Ingin Sendiri
Aku masih... seperti yang dulu
Menunggunmu sampai akhir hidupku
Kesetiaanku tak luntur
Hati pun rela berkorban
Demi keutuhan kau dan aku

Biarkanlah aku memiliki
Semua cinta yang ada di hatimu
Apa pun kan ku berikan
Cinta dan kerinduan
Untukmu... dambaan hatiku...

Malam ini... tak ingin aku sendiri
Ku cari damai bersama bayanganmu...
Hangat pelukan yang masih kurasa
Kau kasih... kau sayang...


Kaulah Segalanya
Mungkin hanya Tuhan
Yang tahu segalanya
Apa yang ku inginkan
Di saat-saat ini

Kau tak 'kan percaya
Kau selalu di hati
Haruskah ku menangis
Untuk mengatakan yang sesungguhnya

( korus )
Kaulah segalanya bagi ku
Kaulah curahan hati ini
Tak mungkin ku melupakan mu
Tiada lagi yang ku harap
Hanya kau seorang

Kau takkan percaya
Kau selalu di hati
Haruskah ku menangis
Untuk mengatakan yang sesungguhnya

Kaulah segalanya bagi ku
Kaulah curahan hati ini
Tak mungkin ku melupakan mu
Tiada lagi yang ku harap
Hanya kau seorang

Kaulah segalanya untuk ku
Kaulah curahan hati ini
Tak mungkin ku melupakan mu
Tiada lagi yang ku harap
Hanya kau seorang
Tiada lagi yang ku harap
Hanya kau seorang

Both songs are on repeat mode..


princess @ 11:16 PM

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I lost.

edited at 11.00am, 28th December.. Sunday


princess @ 11:02 PM

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Waited for mum and bro at the library after work. Nearly fell asleep with the book in my hands. Something wrong with the handphone. Couldnt make a call, neither could I receive calls. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmMM... Stupid network. And to think that I have this problem eventhough I'm using a prepaid line and there's more than sufficient value in my card. Pffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffft~ Perhaps I should complain. *evil laffs*

Anyways, went shopping for undergarments. Cheap! Cheap! Huahauahuaha.. Then had dinner at LJS before heading home.

Feeling oh so sleepy and tired at the moment. Will go to sleep soon. Cant wait for tomorrow to come. =)

You've always been the one I love. Come back darling.. Dont torture me more. I need you.


princess @ 11:43 PM

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Vous n'allez pas le prendre loin de moi! Il appartient a moi!
Seulement je ! Je crois qu'afin de ce que je veux, obtenir je dois
combattre pour lui. Si tout va bien, je gagne. Cause que vous voyez.
Je l'aime beaucoup. Il est le mien.


princess @ 5:44 PM

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Let's slack!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Huahauhauahuaaa...
The big bosses went for meeting. Both Ady's and my supervisor's on leave. Most of the other staffs are on leave too. Wooohooooooooooooooooo! When the cat's gone.. The mice come out to play. And play we will! I dont have the mood to do my flash stuffs. Maybe I'll just finish up one scene today and finish the other on Monday. Heheheheee!

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmMM.. Let's see now. A couple of hours before freedom. Think will go to the ladies and waste time. LoL! Toodles~


princess @ 2:46 PM

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It's that time again..
After days of being happy and on cloud 9, I find myself worrying over something that hasnt happen and I know nothing of. It's a sick feeling in the stomach. Warning me of something sad/awful is going to happen. Most of the time, it came true.

Could it be.. the way both of us arent like how we used to be. Phone calls every single night. Plenty of smses. Many, many "I love you"s. But the situation's different now. Things are different. And for the first time, I'm the one who sees the uselessness in us talking endlessly on the phone. I'd rather meet you, even for a short while.. to talk. To see your facial expression. To look into your eyes. To smell you. To enjoy being in your company. And to know that you feel the same way to.

Perhaps I'm feeling this way cause it'll only be a week to the end of my itp days. No more sneaking glances at the supervisor. =p Back to the days of going to school in the morning and to work in the evening. Only to reach home late at night, tired and do it all over again the next day. If I'm lucky.. I'll get my off on my Sundays. Then I'll have to divide my time wisely. A week with the family.. And perhaps another week with friends or cousins or alone.

It'll be my last year, Insya-Allah. No more taking things lightly. I have no intentions whatsoever to stay for another additional 6 months. 3 and a half years is all I can take. FYP with 2 of the cutest guys in my course. Huhuhuhuhu! Will be the envy of many, many girls. *grins* No more maths for me either. Hurray!

Hopefully, will be in the same class with the people that matter, unlike last semester.. I dont like being around people who judge me without knowing me well enough. Pfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffft~

Erkz.. Look at the time.
I better go to sleep.
Bonsoir!


princess @ 12:58 AM

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Was suppose to go to Jurong in the evening. Even thought of buying my Giordano Jeans with the $40 voucher I got from Ngiap, Ady and Jan. But it rained.. And so, I stayed at home.

Received an SMS from Lyana. She thought that I had stopped blogging since she went to the old address. Hehehehee.. Cute!

Sent Ady the all the pics I want developed. She's going to burn them to the cd so that I dont have to send my memory stick. =) Thanks Ady~

I've finally resized the pics.. Click here.
Work again tomorrow. If only I dont have to... *sighs*
I'm off to watch more television. Toodles~


princess @ 10:00 PM

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Dinner was at Pizza Hut @ Suntec. Exchange of presents and lots of picture taking whilst waiting for the food to arrive. He came over to join us. Perhaps the others notice how my mood changed when he arrived. Perhaps they didnt. Huahauahauahauah!

Went walking around.. Gave him the bracelet I bought him. Thankfully he likes it. And it looks good on him. =) Found ourselves at Esplanade. Lots of people around. Feeling ever so tired and sleepy. He too. Waited for Jan to come back from her second dinner, with her parents. Then we went to sit on the steps, beside the Merlion. More talking, fooling around and picture taking before he and I decided to leave and head home. Walked to Raffles City Mrt, took the train to Marina Bay since we wanted to get seats. He sent me to Woodlands Mrt before taking the bus back to his place. Love him lots for that. =)

Changed my layout as I got tired of looking at pinks and purples. My girly days are over for now. Hehehe!
Pictures will be put up later. Too lazy to resize and whatnots.
Here's a picture for your viewing pleasure..
It shows what happen to people who had too much pizza, chocolate and horny thoughts. LoL~




As usual, I'm the only saint one. Hahahahaaaa~


princess @ 1:53 AM

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Fell asleep in front of the computer. Supervisor saw. Awwwwwwwwwwwww! *slaps forehead* Couldnt wait for time to leave the workplace.

Met mum at Causeway Point. Did a lil bit of shopping. Bought my first ever Charles and Keith sandals. Wooooooohooooooooo! Bumped into many, many familiar faces. Talked to a once close friend. Was nice seeing her again. Exchanged numbers and did more window shopping.

Half day tomorrow. Thank goodness! Will be joining the girls for an early dinner later. I simply cant wait. =)

Have a wonderful Wednesday peeps. I know I will. =)


princess @ 12:15 AM

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Something terrible happened. Shant go into details. Ady, Liling and me decided to go to Plaza Singapura to walk around since the atmosphere in the office was quite tense. Went to Carrefour. I bought a passionfruit cheesecake which tasted heavenly. Hehehehee! Ady bought 100g of chicken brest, I think and Liling bought sushi, chocolate and milk.

Approached the supervisor to tell him that I've completed my work. He took a look at it and said that I did a pretty good job. Words are merely words. When he returned me my log book, I got the same grade I got for the previous 5 weeks. B. My God! He praised me but he still gives me a B. Call me ungrateful. I dont care. I still want an A!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, went to the chalet. There were many unknown faces as there were also people from the other outlets. Finally got to see all three of my managers. Talked for a little while, ate, drank and went my way.

Thought that I was going to reach home before 11.30 but I didnt. No thanks to the bus. Think the parents are getting tired of waiting up for me. It's about time I come home earlier. Do not wish for them to be angry with me. I mean, they have been tolerating me for so long. =)

Will go to sleep now.
Working again tomorrow.. *yawns*
By the way, here's a pic... Bonsoir!






princess @ 1:15 AM

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Goodness gracious me~!
Alarm went off at 7.10am but I only woke up 10 minutes later. Knew that I was going to be late.
Havent made a sandwich for breakfast and lunch. Neither have I ironed my clothes yet. Arkz!
Did everything at double speed. Did the eyes as well. Hehehehee! Woke mum up to tell her that I'm leaving. Salam her and ran down to the bus stop. Only to realise that I've missed it. tsk! I'm so dead~
But, thank goodness Ady and Shu Hui werent mad at me. *heaves a sigh of relief*

It seems that the supervisor is giving me a cold shoulder. Could it be that he's mad cause we laughed at him the other day? When we saw him riding his bike.. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmMM. Perhaps I shouldnt have laughed. But who could blame me? It was such a funny sight. Anyway, he's in a meeting with the contract staffs. Discussing about their project. While I'm here doing nothing.. Just staring at the computer and wondering whether to go to the chalet or not. The thought of going there alone scares me. Yeah yeah, I'm a scaddy cat.

No one seems to be doing their work. Everyone is either surfing the net or slacking. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmMM

Shittos! My handphone battery is left with 2 bars. Pfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffft~
Why does this always happen to me? Before I left home, it was full. Then in the train it was left with 3. And now at work, it's 2! Why now? Why when I need it to last me till the end of the day. Should have just charged it just now. *sighs* I'm just hoping that it wont die on me.

How long does a meeting takes?
For goodness sake, I'm freaking falling asleep here~


princess @ 10:53 AM

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Work was alright.
The queue was non stop. Was really, really tired. Counter duty marathon. Fuh~ Legs felt like jelly. Think hands have muscles already. LoL~ The whole family came to pick me up after work. So sweet! Heheheee..

I dont understand guys.. Neither do I want to.
I totally give up on ever finding out how their minds work.

Will go sleep soon.
Work again tomorrow. Then off to chalet at East Coast.
Woooooohoooooooooooo!
Oh, I better remember to bring my deegee cam along. =)
Good nite!


princess @ 11:46 PM

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I finally got an idea for a new layout. All thanks to this music video on MTV Angguh or something that I saw on tv yesterday. Totally love the song and his voice. Woooooooooooooooo~ Perhaps you should check it out yourself by doing you know what.. =p Or you could wait for me to have the time to upload it to my blog. Which will take ages. Heheheheeee!

Title: Senandung Lirih
Artist : Iwan Hils

Kau wanita terindah
yang pernah kutaklukan
Kau .. kenapa kau pergi
kenapa kau pergi

Kau wanita terhebat
yang pernah memelukku
Kau .. kenapa kau pergi
kenapa kau pergi

Helai udara di sekitarku
senandung lirih namamu
Tiap sudut kota yang kudatangi
senandung lirih namamu

Kau wanita termegah
yang pernah kudapatkan
Kau .. kemana kau pergi
kemana kau pergi

S'moga kau temukan apa yang kau cari
yang tak kau dapatkan dari aku
S'moga kau temukan apa yang kau cari
yang tak kau dapatkan dari aku

Helai udara di sekitarku
senandung lirih namamu
Kemana pun kau akan melangkah
aku yang s'lalu mengenangmu
Kemana pun kau akan melangkah
aku yang s'lalu mengenangmu

Thought of changing my layout last night but got a surprising call from Hakim. Ahhhh.. Nice hearing his voice again. But hated the part when he asked why I'm still single. Like it's anybody's business. I mean, I'm not bothered about not having a boyfriend.. Why should him and the others, right? Eventhough he's like the closest guy friend I have, that still doesnt give him the right to ask such a personal question. *fakes anger* Hehehee! Perhaps he's hinting eh? For goodness sake.. If you do like me more than a friend.. Do tell!!! I'd love to know~ LoL.

Anyways, I'm off to work.. *yawns*
Hopefully there arent many fussy customers today.
Or I'll just have to bite their heads off.
For your information, I have sharp teeth. Huhuhuhu~
Right darling? Whoever you are..


princess @ 4:27 PM

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I fell asleep in front of the computer at work. Hehehehehee~
Reached home, had lunch.. Watched the telly for awhile before falling asleep again, with my comforter around me to keep me warm.

Watched the LOTR, behind the scenes on both Channel 5 and Channel NewsAsia. Legolas is simply gorgeous. Huhuhuhuhu! Long, flowing blond hair. Beautiful blue eyes.. *faints*

hmmmmmmmmmmmmMM... Dont know why but I find it difficult to type. Could it be that I'm so used to the computer at work thus, the many typos. Even the mouse's giving problems. *sighs* Sorry dear Aaron. For not spending as much time with you as I used to. I know I'm being unfaithful. But do try to understand my situation, will you? It's not as though I wanted to spend 9 hours everyday in front of him. I'm forced to. *chuckles*

Thinking of changing my layout. Dont have the time nor energy to. Unlike somebody.. Hehehehee! Always changing layouts. I'm envious. =p

Anyway, I really like this picture. It was taken by Herda yesterday. You should know who the model is.. Heheh!






princess @ 9:51 PM

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Sleepy..
I've finished doing the scenes for the flash animation. *yawns*
What else can I do, eh?
Too much blog hopping till I got lost. Heheh.

Neways, I smell of Escada today...
Fuh~ I like!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's all for now..
Will update again later.
Bear with me.
I'm just plain bored. *grins*


princess @ 12:17 PM

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Did I mention that we had a "heart to heart" talk last night? Yeah well, we did.

I dont know what I want anymore.
When I'm with him, all I can think of is him.
When I'm not, other things come into mind. Mind you, it's things.. Not people.

Then there's the other guys who sort of came into my life. *sighs*
But they're not a threat since they only appear once in awhile. Hehehehe...

Ah.. and finally I realise my flaws!
I easily get jealous. I'm stubborn and possesive. I'm human. Yay!

One thing's for sure. He said that if in the future, we're together again.. He hope that history wont repeat itself. Something like that ah.
But the question is.. Will we be back together again?


princess @ 11:25 AM

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Bonjour!
Went to Bugis to meet the MakanKakis, Pinky and Moshee's friend for dinner at ZamZam. Only to head to Pizza Hut @ Suntec City as it was raining heavily and there was no way to get to ZamZam dry.

It was lots of fun meeting them. Nice food, ambience and company makes it purrfect. Heheheheeee~
Didnt take pictures as I didnt bring my camera along. *sighs*
Some other day perhaps.. =)

Currently at work.
MY supervisor is nowhere to be seen. Could it be that he's sick? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmMM.
Anyway, checked my other work schedule and guess what. I'm not working on Christmas! Yippppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
Anybody wanna go out on a date with me? LoL~


princess @ 10:17 AM

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Got this from somewhere..

as i gaze up at the stars
the sharp pangs of my bleeding heart
grows ever ever more...

i miss his eyes, i miss his touch
i miss his smile, i miss his laugh
i miss his smell, i miss his warmth
but i noe we're friends and nothing more...

the stars, they twinkle, way up high,
reminding me that i musn't cry

the blades of crushed grass under your feet,
the petals of flowers you so carelessly picked
such beauty regrows, as water gushes from the spring,
everlasting though it may be, such sadness it brings

as the sun rises, a new dawn begins
but in the shadows of darkness, my aching heart bleeds


princess @ 11:45 PM

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In case you're wondering what souhaits means.. Well, it simply means wishes in French. =)

Anyway, went to Beach Road after work with the family for dinner. My treat. Then went to my favourite place, Mustaffa Centre, to look for a new blender. After many minutes looking at the different model of blenders, we went to have a look at the watches. Initially, wasnt really interested in the watches but then, it was love at 2nd sight. Heheheheee! The first watch I fell in love with didnt look as nice on me as I thought it would, when I put it on. The second one was purrfect! Though it look similar to daddy's. But I dont mind. Cause it's beautiful~!!!!!!!

Went to the perfume department.. Looked at the perfume that I longed to buy. *sighs* Didnt want to overspend.. But I bought it anyway. Hahahahhaa! Will think about overspending and bankrupcy later. Just this once, I need to buy things I want to make myself happy. =) And furthermore, at least I know where my money goes to. Instead of spending it other stuffs, like food and entertainment.

Huhuhuhu... I simply love my watch.
Too bad I couldnt take a pic of it. Sent the memory stick to the shop for developing..
Oh well, some other time then.. =)

I'm off to do my work stuffs.
Have a nice day!
Bonsoir~


princess @ 11:18 PM

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Too many complicated things have happenned this past few days.. *sighs*

princess @ 12:53 AM

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